A few more weeks and I finally bid you goodbye. Thank you for your darkness that had been my guide throughout the years. You've taught me a lot of things that I will bring with me as I take another career path on day shift. For almost six years, I had lived a lifestyle that the society had come to accept over the years-awake during eves and asleep at day time. Staying up late at night had brought about a lot experiences, some I would definitely cherish, the others I hope to forget.
I remember the first months I struggled to trying sleeping during the days, it makes me go crazy coz no matter how I try to close my eyes and shut my brain down to rest, I just can't--like sleeping when the sun is still up was next to impossible. I would even try drinking beer, overtimes at work, and taking sleeping pills that never worked. Until I discovered the power of antihistamine to lull me to sleep. Later on, with the sun wide shut, sleeping has become a norm.
Back then, when I think about career opportunities, its all about money. How much is the basic, what are the perks offered, proximity to residence, bonuses and incentives given. My only focus back then was how I would help mama and papa send Nali, Bebs and Doydoy to school and of course support my own little addiction with coffee, books, movies and travelling to nearby islands to camp out. Night shift didn't fail me to accomplish all these things. As years pass by, after a few bottles of beer, series of nights of partying, it's time to set long term goals. I think I have done enough. It's about time I search my own passion that I couldn't find in the wake of night shift.
I didn't realize I will leave you so soon that I had even made plans for the entire year! I would have to give up a few big dreams for now, but definitely learning how to drive a car has to be done soon. My biological clock would need to take a 360 degrees shift. My routine will change and job description will be totally different from what I am currently doing. I would also need to give up some perks I used to get--air-conditioned office, a spacious office pod, a predictable monthly targets, monetary incentives-- but I know it's gonna be all worth it. Getting out of this comfort zone will lead to a lot of other opportunities. I have fears, just like those fears when I first ventured into the night shift- Will I be good enough for the job? Will I make a difference?-- are just a couple of questions I have for myself as I take this new venture. Rest assure that all the positive work ethics I had come to learn over the years- integrity, respect for others, innovation, being open to criticism, will be carried on as I say hello to Day Shift.