I know you have been a little sad lately, been depressed and had been wishing for all other things.
You are on that point again of shutting yourself to the world. You are starting to live the life of a robot again. Wake up, eat, read, go to work and go home, be in front of your computer, keep up with how other people are living their lives that you are on the verge of forgetting to live yours.
All I know, I know that you are disappointed-- with yourself for most part. I have been telling you that you should not be hard on yourself. Don’t push yourself too hard coz we both know that you really cannot work or think under pressure. Things are not turning out as you have framed them in your mind and events are arising beyond your expectation, because you had forgotten that we cannot predict the future.
Remind yourself that everything is a choice. Everything is a matter of perspective—of how you view these things that had been coming your way. You are in the survival mode because you choose to see it that way. You need to look at little things that make your day happy, little stories of success, count blessings that come your way and appreciate wonderful people around you.
You just need a hug and someone to remind you that everything will be alright but if you keep on sulking and sleeping all day, you are missing the opportunity to get all the powerhugs the people around can give you.
Be strong. Be resilient, coz that's who you are.
Life is good. God is generous. Love is overflowing.