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Why I Write 3.0

In celebration of the third anniversary of my little safe space in the cyberspace, which up until now, I haven't really figured out on how to give a more  "me" kind of design, I will try to enumerate why I do what I do in here, how I come up with topics, just about anything random about what and why I write and write.


1.  Unlike others' whose pages are themed into something in particular, mine is not, but I think it still is themed to something in particular--- my life.

2. This is a website that is all about me. My dreams, frustrations, failures, shortcomings, my altogether dramas in life.

3. Only a few of the posts have labels on them.

4. This is my safe space.

5. As one author had said " Share your story. Your life is a blog, not a book."

6. I don't wanna be immortal, I just wanna be remembered.

7. This is my stage, I am the singer and the actress. Soon, hopefully, I'll get to be the dancer too!

8. Not everyone would want to know what my thoughts …

500DoS

This is my own 500 Days of Summer. 

I would like to think that I am Summer and you are Tom. 
But in our 500DOS, I didnt't leave you hanging because I fell in love with another man. I had just grown tired trying to define whatever we used to have. Afterall, relationships are messy.  You didn't ran after me because you have either other girls waiting or priorities that doesn't include me in it. 
Our 500DOS ended when I asked the question what are we and I never got an answer, only silence. My mistake was, maybe our story wasn't suppose to be for a 500 days, it's probably for another thousand days? How would I know? I became impatient and that had ended what I used to see as a ray of hope, a piece of sunshine on a daily basis. 
Your mistake was maybe you should have talked and said that one word, "Wait." That would have made a difference. Just that one word and my restlessness, hopelessness and impatience would have dwindled down. I would put that in my mind…

The Small Red Car

I sleep like a normal person now and last night I dreamt that I was driving a small red car.

I was driving on a straight path at a very slow pace. At first, I was alone and then I had to pick up my father, we are going to a bus terminal to pick up my mother who came from the province.

The first road was straight and uphill. Then, when I took a turn to pick up my father, and then took another turn, the driving pace was very, very slow. At first, I noticed there were only two step ons (brake and gas) so, I think it was an A/T car. Then, noticing that no matter how I press the gas to speed up, it would just rev up but not speed up. Still, I kept driving. The roads had it's twist and turns and were bumpy and muddy. Shockingly, my father wasn't complaining at all! Then, he later read a text message that Mama was already home. We both hurriedly got off the car and ran home.

We saw Mama at the gate taking her bags inside the lawn while making sure that the dogs won't be able to g…

Brighter than the Sun Cover

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Basta, paggising ko kanina, feel ko na lang kumanta at tugtugin si Fernando. Dahil antagal kong hindi nagamit si Fernando, pinarusahan nya ko nang bongga! Parang hinihiwa yung daliri ko habang nakadiin sa mga strings :'(

Habang ako nagsstream sa Spotify ng mga playlists sa Moods Category, napakinggan ko tong kanta ni Colbie Colliat at sabi ko sa sarili kong aaralin ko ito minsan isang araw at ang araw na iyon ay dumating na!

I need all the good vibes I can get. With that in mind, let me sing my heart out.
Una ko pa lang po ito sa taong ito. Nawa'y makabuo ako ng isang album. Lol.  Thank you. Hahaha..

Bukod sa pangarap kong maging cover girl at centerfold ng FHM, at boudoir black and white photoshoot na ako ang model, isa talaga sa frustration ko ang pagkanta at pagtugtog ng gitara. Out of the three, to save a bit of my remaining dignity, I will just sing. Hahaha!


Brighter than the Sun by Colbie Colliat

Stop me on the corner
I swear you hit me like a vision
I, I, I wasn't …

Another Ending.

As of this very moment, I am officially unemployed. One of the shortest employment period I have had as of to date. 
My Phase 3 metrics did not meet the minimum thus, my manager, decided to terminate my employment with the company that took me four times to apply before I got hired. 
I didn't really feel its impact until I got home, knocked at the door and was asked why I'm already home at this wee hour. It's pains to say " Wala na po akong trabaho." 
But really, while I was signing my termination of contract paper, I was thinking of all the things I will be making time for specially for February's upcoming interviews, language lessons, guitar sessions and time to read and write about many things! 
Now, as I lay down in the confines of my room, the chronic-worrier strikes again. What if I run out of funds sooner than I can imagine? With the interview dates for my current applications still unclear, what am I really supposed to do? How do I start again? 
I take thi…

VBA

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I am deeply honored to receive the Versatile Blogger Award from Stevevhan, the author of page Artistic World~



Random facts about me:

1. I'm a crybaby. Either I am at my happiest or at my saddest, I cry.

2. I love surprises even it's a very simple one, it makes me giddy giddy giddy happy!

3. I tend to forget sad and bad moments easier in my life, like they never happened.

4. I have very very short attention span and I am aware of it. I have been trying ways to keep my focus on something and it's awfully hard but I am on it.

5. There are days that I had to choose between Melatonin tabs or Allersoothe tabs as my sleeping pills as ordinary Sleepasil won't work on me.

6. My phone is filled with selfies I take almost every day.

7. If I wanna learn something, as in like really wanna learn it, I find ways to do so then I get bored again and want to learn something new again.

Mechanics:

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Oh No.

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My dreams with you are simple….
            Spend the day binge-watching a series             A good run at a certain trail             Read a book while sitting beside you             People-watch while killing time at a cafΓ©             Watch you move around the kitchen while prepping food for the family             Kiss at a dancefloor             Discuss arguments no matter how petty             Sleep beside you             Watch sunrise and sunset while holding your hand
How to make them reality, that’s what makes it complicated.

Oh yes, I have my needy days. I don't want to think I am needy. But this time, I am. Ugh. I hate this “time of the month"  all the mood swings in this world combined. 




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Calvin Oh Calvin.

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It's a ritual to flip on a page before taking a bath on prep to work.... 
Today, I got this: 

I can't even draw.. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

From Beer to Margaritas, and Finally to Wine

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It had almost been a year since we left the school where we all taught for two years and I still cannot believe that I had the chance of working with some of the most amazing people in this planet. Most of them coming from privileged backgrounds and chose to do development work. Out of 8, 3 of us chose to work for the private sector with the rest working either in the NGO or the government under a contract still for the education sector.  I admire each of them for their dedication and humility in what they had done and achieved so far. If only we can have  ALL of the people working for the government have a heart and work ethics like theirs, I guess, we won’t need NGOs and the government will be adequate enough to support the better life for its constituents. Unfortunately, we only have a number of them in the government.
Chess, Gian, Carlo, Jessa, Ja, Nikki and Sofia.
Writing this, I have no idea where to start and how to talk about each of them. Our differences and personal and we…

Brain Rules by John Medina

I found these rules useful, you might also find it the same :)


1. Exercise boosts brain power.
2. The human brain evolved, too.
3. Every brain is wired differently.
4. We don't pay attentions to boring things.
5. Repeat to remember.
6. Remember to repeat.
7. Sleep well, think well. 
8. Stressed brains don't learn the same way.
9. Stimulate more of the senses.
10. Vision trumps all other senses. 
11. Male and female brains are different.
12. We are powerful and natural explorers.

Ready, Get Set, Sweat.

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Started the year with a short run :) 


Wasn't able to go far because it was drizzling. Still, it was a mission accomplished for the first day of 2016. 
To more good runs, goals to achieve and awesome year ahead.