How accomplished do you feel today?

How accomplished do you feel today?

Me, I felt like the day just went by and I had done nothing anything significant at all.

There's this side of my brain that keeps reminding me that I should be sad and sensitive. (F*c& these hormones!) while there's this other side of me telling that I should just keep myself busy and occupied so I wont have to entertain any negative ideas of sorts.

It's hard to fight ones own thoughts. Indeed, our greatest enemy is ourselves.

I've been busy the whole day. Doing this and that in school. Prepping for the new school term. Familiarizing myself with the new textbooks (which really sucks) re-arranging stuff inside the classroom and just labeling almost everything.

I've been busy scrolling onto the social media again. Getting myself almost active on Twitter again. Hoping that at least, I can post something sensible that my crush would then take notice. That didn't happen today. Maybe I should tweet more and use more catchy hashtags.

365 Questions QOTD
When was your last vacation? Where did you go?

On January 2017, a week before I left for Japan, we went to this northwestern side of Luzon-- Bolinao, Pangasinan. We stayed there for 3 days and 2 nights.

It was good. I love the sunsets I've seen in the that place.
That not-so-low-not-so high cliff where I climbed over to see and experience bigger waves. I was hoping I could jump straight to the sea, but my superstitious uncle warned me not to be so adventurous since I have a scheduled flight soon.
I tried to eat the inside of a sea urchin which was not a good idea. My lips got swollen and itchy for a bit since I am actually allergic to seafood but I still tried my luck with the sea urchin. Booyah.

My Ex and Whys

My Ex and Whys

As any typical Filipino modern love story, they lived happily ever with all the "hugots" involved and all the supporting roles involved-- the pambansang bestfriend, the wingman, and the titas of manila.

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365 Questions QOTD

What advice were you given?
... my closest friend who's in Iceland advised me that I should never stop believing that there is the one which she emphasized in another statement that I should never stop swiping right. LOL.

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A Hug

Where I'm at right now, every hug I get or I give out, it's just so valuable. It's rare.

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Cherry Blossoms Soon

Cherry blossoms as per forecast, here in Miyazaki, will be next weekend. Hopefully it doesn't rain.

Two Months and Counting

When I came here, I told myself I will write so many things about my life in here. I told my self, I will document every thing and keep it here. But I haven't written a lot since I came here.

Living alone isn't a new thing for me. Having lived at a boarding house way back in college, I think I know what it feels like to live alone. Or so I thought.

Here, it is totally different. From billboards that I cannot understand, to bus schedules that I usually don't need, to labels on grocery items that I can't read, to a bookstore that has limited items that I can understand, to people that would barely understand a word I say, to a literally cold and almost empty home I come to every day.

My tita warned me about moments that I will cry incessantly because I would miss home. I sure am. I am missing home and the crying moments would start when I am at home alone.

On my day offs, I would frequent Daiso and pick of things I can buy for my little space. As if anything I put in it, would make it feel the warmth of a home. I try to put wall decors with vibrant colors, as if that would put life in it. I bought a ukulele out of whim coz I thought, I just needed to keep myself occupied so I wont feel empty.

I would lay in bed usually up until 3pm, doing nothing but scrolling and scrolling on my phone. Curled up in that little space, forgetting my promise to myself to explore the new place I am at. Sulking into loneliness.

Usual routes would consist of work, grocery, window shopping at Aeon Mall or that second hand shop 15 minutes bike-ride away from me.

One Thursday morning, I veered away from that usual day off routine and rode a train towards this highly-recommended daytrip onsen experience at a 3-star hotel. I was glad I did that. They have Ladies Day on Thursdays and so I got a discount for using the onsen and the gym. But since my weekday offs are erratic, I would probably have to wait for the next month to get that Thursday off. Or maybe, I could just jump into the train again and just go there. The discount isn't that much anyway compared to what relaxation it can give. After all, it's the best pampering I could give myself for now. But I wish I can do it with my mom and sisters too, someday.

Two months and counting,  I should not pressure myself onto scribing my experience and realizations with this chapter of my life. It is still anew and there's a lot to discover. From language acquisition, to lifestyle check, to establishing a career and investments and finding love or me having to be found.

One thing is for sure, this place has good people, I just need to be careful who to trust.

Buti na lang.

I made a classic mistake today.

For someone who is a first timer in an onsen, I almost went inside the wrong Onsen room- the Gents area.

Buti na lang! Lol.

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