Showing posts from December, 2016

A Starter Kit

Today, I started the initials of packing up for my upcoming career move. It's not easy. Trimming down the list of items as essentials to put in the luggage is not as easy as I thought I am just going for a backpacking spree somewhere. First off what the choice of luggage itself. My younger sister sponsored the purchase. How blessed could I get :) She chose a very expensive one for the fear of "laglag-bala" but I opted for a Buy 1 Take 1 one of a good brand and hoping that such fiasco wont victimize me. I pray. I have faith. Figuring out the wardrobe is next. Well, I had done an initial sorting first week of December, it took almost two boxes, then, I did another one on the third week of December, disregarding another 2/3 of what I had initially sorted. I already have a list prepared but never really refreshed it until today. Had to cross a few and add a few more. Meds. My antihistamines wont be here until January 9. Then, the rest are OTCs. Food. I haven't reall

Randomthoughts 23 Dec 2016

time check: 9:37 PM 1. Bisperas na ng Pasko bukas! Ayown, di man lang ako busy kung anong ihahanda namin di tulad noong mga nakaraang taon. 2. Ang boring maging tambay! Bat andaming tambay sa mundo? Kagustuhan kaya talaga nila yun? Or wala lang talagang choice? 3. Nag-try ako gumawa ng butter cookies, mej pa. Practice pa. Maraming practice pa! 4. Andami kong comments dun sa nagdaang event na di naman ako kasali. 5. Woot! Dami kong na-meet na bloggers ngayong taon! 6. I am preparing for a winter-ready body. Oh ha. I need all the fats I can get to warm me up. Parang bear lang na nagpeprepare maghibernate. Only that pagdating ko dun, di nman ako maghihibernate kundi kakayod para sa ekonomiya. 7. Effective yung tagline ko for 2016 na "Kapit lang sa Pangarap" ano naman kaya for 2017? 8. Ang bad ko bang ninang? Wala kong gifts sa mga inaanak ko ngayong taon eh. 9. Eto na naman ako sa scroll-party/self-pity kakababad sa social media newsfeed. 10.

After-laundry Session

How Far I'll Go  OST of Moana (Motion Picture 2016) I've been staring at the edge of the water 'Long as I can remember, never really knowing why I wish I could be the perfect daughter But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I try Every turn I take, every trail I track Every path I make, every road leads back To the place I know, where I cannot go Where I long to be See the line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me And no one knows, how far it goes If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me One day I'll know, if I go there's just no telling how far I'll go Oh oh oh, oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh Oh oh oh, oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh I know, everybody on this island seems so happy on this island Everything is by design I know, everybody on this island has a role on this island So maybe I can roll with mine I can lead with pride, I can make us strong I'll be satisfied if I play along But th

Self-imposed Torture

I remember tweeting this: I can’t wait for the day that I will wake up and it’s not you I am longing for. Then, today, I remember doing this. I remember you, but I don’t long for you anymore. Funny how life has been playing with my feelings all along. I waited for a day like this and today, I can certainly say, I remember you, but I don’t long for you anymore. It had been quite a rollercoaster ride. Every day is a day of waiting and agony for me right now. Having nothing else to do and worry for the next 4 weeks is waking up the chronic-worrier in me. Having nothing else to do is making me gain weight fast. Having nothing else to do is letting out the worst in me. I am trying to remember what I had done to forget you, maybe that will help me divert all these negative feelings I have as well until the day arrives. The feeling that I don't have a fallback at the moment should things get out of hand is making me so worried. So worried that I keep eating. LOL. Over breakf

Not There YEt.

Two persons. Two settings. Same story. Last Saturday, on two separate occasions, I met two of my closest friends from separate jobs I had in the past. Same Thing. Same Plans. I had been inviting her for a coffee meet up and she kept cancelling because of so many reasons. I didn’t mean to tell her that I am leaving via SMS because I was planning to tell her that personally. But since she kept on rescheduling and I am not sure if I will be included in the last flight for the month, I decided to tell her via SMS about my career move. With that, the plan to meet got sealed and brought us to Twin Lakes in Alfonso, Cavite. She has been working for 10 years now in the same company where we met and had gone close. Her dreams of being a pastry chef hasn't changed. Unfortunately, she hasn’t made any move to start that dream. She would always find an excuse about the delay. She would always find reasons about being tied to the company she is with now for 10 years. Her situa

What's Important.

I actually didn't know how to feel earlier today when I received a confirmation that I will not be able to fly to Japan this December. I just forwarded the screencaptured text message to my siblings, my cousins, my former co-teachers and selected friends who knew my current plight. They all seem happy that I will get the chance the Christmas holidays and New Year celebration here, with the family. The dream of landing a job abroad took almost 4 years in the making, now, I am on the final steps of that chapter and it seems that I am still being put on hold. I don't know how to feel. If I am to describe how I feel, it would be-- I am a bit sad, yet I am happy that I would get to spend the holidays with my family, I also feel fear that things might get out of hand as because plans aren't executed on time, another set of fears for being sort of unemployed for the next few weeks until I get to have a confirmed flight and job landing. A little bit of dismay for the time to lose t