Life of a Kat

 365 QOTD  The last thing I bought myself was...   ... a pair of gym shoes  ********************** Closing in half of 2021, tired with the things that I am happy that I can do. But still falling short with effort and perseverance.  Days are still alone and every now and then, the moments of loneliness still hits me, big time, but it is what it is and I just gotta keep going with all those tasks and commitments I have given myself.  Emails here and there, replies here and there, wrapping up June 30 with, "It's time for bed."  ******** Dear You,  I have been having quite an eventful half of 2021. I hope you are enjoying life as well at the moment. I am looking forward to meeting you and sharing stories and life with you.  Yours,  Kat 

 365 QOTD  Today, I was so..... I was so... not-so productive. I still forgot some errands to do and haven't even worked out. I should be going to the yoga classes, but since it is in the opposite direction, I just had to bail out.  I know right.  I was fun to have meal prepped a few meals for the week, I don't have to think too much about what would I eat and where will I get food to eat. I still get a few bites for the convenience stores, such a bad habit to break, but will definitely have to work on it as the mortgage on the property in Manila starts this month.  Also, it is Day 2 of period and it is heavy af. And a few incidents in school. I swear, I could have just cried in the corner and/or scream my lungs out. But I know that I am having anxiety attack because I have been eating eventhough I don't know what taste I am craving for.  Tomorrow is another day to redeem myself and all the plans I have made.  I am finally admitting that I miss my crush. So bad. 

I just realized the many hats I wore and I am happy to wear. I am being asked to write a bionote for publicity for a PH-based conference and I don't know how to do it. I decided to cut some part of it but thought of saving the whole in here:  Full Name: Kat Email Add: *******@**.***.ph  Meow is currently completing her MLLE degree in UPOU after graduating DLLE in Oct 2019, passing the Comprehensive Exam in Jan 2020. She earned her Baccalaureate degree, BSEd major in Physics in Bicol University College of Education. She jumpstarted her teaching career with Teach for the Philippines as part of the pioneer batch of Teacher Fellows, teaching 3rd graders in Commonwealth Elementary School for 2 years (2013-2015). Before all that, she was a corporate slave for the BPO sector for seven years.  Through her graduate studies, she had gained knowledge about Linguistic Imperialism. She had been invited on two international conferences for teachers through Teach for All to talk about Second Lang

 365 QOTD What is the last book you read?  1Q84 by Haruki Murakami.  ************** Today was bearable. The class was a jurrasic park as usual but they had fun. So, that's what matters, it guarantees that they are coming back and that secures my job until it is time to go.  I had been trying to control the breakdown since this morning, I had been fighting back tears while driving which was a big struggle. I had been driving over 90kph and had beaten my regular trip hours to the midpoint to 40 minutes from the usual 1 hour and 10 minutes. I just need to keep sure that I am driving safe and following road signs.  I am at the hotel right now and in the process of rendering the mp3 version of my edited podcast. It was a struggle to keep cutting and cutting lines but I have to because I need make sure that it is not too lengthy. I loved how our conversation had flown but I know that as much as I like it to be like that, there are certain parts that needed to be cut for reasons. HAHAHA. 

I was kinda surprised and kinda grateful that I haven't had any intense breakdowns lately at least for the couple of months that had passed. And the n just now, I am feeling it again. The series of deep sighs, the tears just wanna roll down, the deep feeling of loneliness creeps into me and I just am losing if again.  The days and weeks had been filled from morning til late evening. From mundane tasks of housekeeping, prepping up the day, then jumping from one task to another, the exhausting part is the switching inside the brain to be in the present moment of task at hand.  But I love every thing that I get to do right now. I just wish I get to express it more into someone and then I can add it into my writing.  I just checked into my hotel for the week. I need to get myself collected within an hour, coz work starts at 6pm.  I am in one of those days that I, myself, would never understand why I feel this way despite all the good things and people that I have in my life, but as muc

 Instead of browsing through the material before a scheduled online conversation, here I am taking time to write this memory of a very full day.  I was actually late for the morning schedule just because I had a hard time figuring our parking space again. I really shouldn't be bringing the car but it is more practical to take all my stuff with me instead of just going back to the house to pick it up and go to work. But maybe that would have been a more economical decision.  Then, as usual, I didn't get to have a decent lunch because I was running out of time for transit going to the next work location. And also the same reason to the regular job destination. I was so hungry on my last class and I am trying my best not to snap on one of the students who always seem lost and talk like a parrot. Lol. He would just repeat whatever I say eventhough I explain the context of phrases and words.  As soon as I got home, I heated up the food I cooked the night before and got some crackers

 365 QOTD  What are you looking forward to?  I thought of intentionally answering this one today, instead of just making a Canva poster for sharing in my IG stories as if other people will take time to answer the question for themselves.  I look forward to good days with the "friend-boyfriend-partner-husband" who I would be spending the days and nights, have fights and kiss and make ups, massage my lower back and share wonderful experiences for ourselves and others.  My days being a single person are already good, I could ask for more, but I would rather let the future give that for me as I learn to be content, grateful, and a little bit more hardworking today. Hahaha!  ********** Wednesday Day Off went more productive that I thought, I suppose. I ate a lot of rice though. LOL.  The only thing I really to work hard on is my addiction with handling my mobile phone as if I am expecting important messages from people. I have already learned to put it away from my bedside during

 Today's adventure took place in Nango, a little coastal town down south of Miyazaki Prefecture. It is famous for its mountains, dive spots, surfing, and of course, the fish restaurants.  The most famous one is the Nango Eki no Meitsu. A restaurant by the fishport that is always filled to the brim with people who wanted to eat the freshest catch of the day, they open daily from 10:30AM up to 3PM. I skipped breakfast coz I was in a hurry and looking forward to eating something good for lunch as planned. So, this is my Before and After Eating Shots.  I looked happy, but not really. Lemme dig in!  This is the legit happy me! Busog me is a happy me!  But of course, there should be a photo op. This is by the parking lot, just right across the restaurant we went to.  It is Jacaranda Festival somewhere and our welcoming committee was this guy.  Japan is composed of more or less 6,000 islands and Kyushu seems to have a lot of those.  This story is still incomplete, I kinda enjoyed doing th

 365 QOTD  How did you do it? Did what? ....  So, here's how my day had gone...  I woke up with a morning video call from family, and it is always a good start for the day. I took my time in the morning preparing breakfast that was mainly crackers with cream cheese, scrambled egg and black coffee. I have been fancying black coffee lately and I liked it.  I had to rush out of the house for a volunteer task I promised to do in the city for an hour. Had gone to the dentist for an appointment. From there, I decided to go to my surf club for two yoga sessions, to make up for the weekdays that I didn't go. I thought I will be able to order books for my aunt but I wasn't able to work on my laptop at all.  I planned to look for a guitar hardcase but didn't get to find a good one. Maybe I will do that in Kanoya.  I was able to buy some grocery stuff and other Daiso essentials.  I tried baking an Apple Pie! HAHAHA. It wasn't as good as those I can buy at the store of course,

I just want to write. I also want someone to appreciate what I write. But if that doesn’t happen, that is alright with me. After all, all I want to do is write and read. And with the current life situation that I have right now, I can say that I am having that luxury of time and experience and communication skills, but I am still not doing it regularly, whole-heartedly and honestly.  I wish I am brave enough to dig deep into myself and spill out the words about how I feel and think as if no one is reading.  A lot of good things had been happening lately that I really wish to put into stories in this blog, so that in the future, I could read back and wonder if I had really felt that, experience it or meet those people.  Life is so kind lately that I get the chance to do things I had always wanted to do.  Being able to spot small waves for surfing.  Gradual increase in flexibility to be able to do yoga poses.  Driving on roads and getting to places for the first time.  Financial independ

 365 QOTD  When did you last sing your heart out?  Just this evening on my drive home from work. I just had to coz it is raining and I am a bit nervous driving coz it is raining at it is also dark.  *******  I am stepping backwards to be able to move forward. That is all I know for now.