Showing posts from 2016

A Starter Kit

Today, I started the initials of packing up for my upcoming career move. It's not easy. Trimming down the list of items as essentials to put in the luggage is not as easy as I thought I am just going for a backpacking spree somewhere. First off what the choice of luggage itself. My younger sister sponsored the purchase. How blessed could I get :) She chose a very expensive one for the fear of "laglag-bala" but I opted for a Buy 1 Take 1 one of a good brand and hoping that such fiasco wont victimize me. I pray. I have faith. Figuring out the wardrobe is next. Well, I had done an initial sorting first week of December, it took almost two boxes, then, I did another one on the third week of December, disregarding another 2/3 of what I had initially sorted. I already have a list prepared but never really refreshed it until today. Had to cross a few and add a few more. Meds. My antihistamines wont be here until January 9. Then, the rest are OTCs. Food. I haven't reall

Randomthoughts 23 Dec 2016

time check: 9:37 PM 1. Bisperas na ng Pasko bukas! Ayown, di man lang ako busy kung anong ihahanda namin di tulad noong mga nakaraang taon. 2. Ang boring maging tambay! Bat andaming tambay sa mundo? Kagustuhan kaya talaga nila yun? Or wala lang talagang choice? 3. Nag-try ako gumawa ng butter cookies, mej pa. Practice pa. Maraming practice pa! 4. Andami kong comments dun sa nagdaang event na di naman ako kasali. 5. Woot! Dami kong na-meet na bloggers ngayong taon! 6. I am preparing for a winter-ready body. Oh ha. I need all the fats I can get to warm me up. Parang bear lang na nagpeprepare maghibernate. Only that pagdating ko dun, di nman ako maghihibernate kundi kakayod para sa ekonomiya. 7. Effective yung tagline ko for 2016 na "Kapit lang sa Pangarap" ano naman kaya for 2017? 8. Ang bad ko bang ninang? Wala kong gifts sa mga inaanak ko ngayong taon eh. 9. Eto na naman ako sa scroll-party/self-pity kakababad sa social media newsfeed. 10.

After-laundry Session

How Far I'll Go  OST of Moana (Motion Picture 2016) I've been staring at the edge of the water 'Long as I can remember, never really knowing why I wish I could be the perfect daughter But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I try Every turn I take, every trail I track Every path I make, every road leads back To the place I know, where I cannot go Where I long to be See the line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me And no one knows, how far it goes If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me One day I'll know, if I go there's just no telling how far I'll go Oh oh oh, oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh Oh oh oh, oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh I know, everybody on this island seems so happy on this island Everything is by design I know, everybody on this island has a role on this island So maybe I can roll with mine I can lead with pride, I can make us strong I'll be satisfied if I play along But th

Self-imposed Torture

I remember tweeting this: I can’t wait for the day that I will wake up and it’s not you I am longing for. Then, today, I remember doing this. I remember you, but I don’t long for you anymore. Funny how life has been playing with my feelings all along. I waited for a day like this and today, I can certainly say, I remember you, but I don’t long for you anymore. It had been quite a rollercoaster ride. Every day is a day of waiting and agony for me right now. Having nothing else to do and worry for the next 4 weeks is waking up the chronic-worrier in me. Having nothing else to do is making me gain weight fast. Having nothing else to do is letting out the worst in me. I am trying to remember what I had done to forget you, maybe that will help me divert all these negative feelings I have as well until the day arrives. The feeling that I don't have a fallback at the moment should things get out of hand is making me so worried. So worried that I keep eating. LOL. Over breakf

Not There YEt.

Two persons. Two settings. Same story. Last Saturday, on two separate occasions, I met two of my closest friends from separate jobs I had in the past. Same Thing. Same Plans. I had been inviting her for a coffee meet up and she kept cancelling because of so many reasons. I didn’t mean to tell her that I am leaving via SMS because I was planning to tell her that personally. But since she kept on rescheduling and I am not sure if I will be included in the last flight for the month, I decided to tell her via SMS about my career move. With that, the plan to meet got sealed and brought us to Twin Lakes in Alfonso, Cavite. She has been working for 10 years now in the same company where we met and had gone close. Her dreams of being a pastry chef hasn't changed. Unfortunately, she hasn’t made any move to start that dream. She would always find an excuse about the delay. She would always find reasons about being tied to the company she is with now for 10 years. Her situa

What's Important.

I actually didn't know how to feel earlier today when I received a confirmation that I will not be able to fly to Japan this December. I just forwarded the screencaptured text message to my siblings, my cousins, my former co-teachers and selected friends who knew my current plight. They all seem happy that I will get the chance the Christmas holidays and New Year celebration here, with the family. The dream of landing a job abroad took almost 4 years in the making, now, I am on the final steps of that chapter and it seems that I am still being put on hold. I don't know how to feel. If I am to describe how I feel, it would be-- I am a bit sad, yet I am happy that I would get to spend the holidays with my family, I also feel fear that things might get out of hand as because plans aren't executed on time, another set of fears for being sort of unemployed for the next few weeks until I get to have a confirmed flight and job landing. A little bit of dismay for the time to lose t

Bawal Kumontra.

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Revision ongoing. I look forward to posting the revised and improved one on the wall. I used to have a very sharp memory but having undergone major operation, my memory seem to have been selective and lapsing. So, to keep me reminded, I need to have things and musings posted somewhere I can easily read them daily. I look forward to the day that I can post on one of the walls of my soon-to-be new humble abode the improved version of this daily reminder. posted from Bloggeroid

Great Timing

I received this as a birthday gift a few years back from my bekifriends. My birthday is midyear and they seem to know that I love fancy notebooks and writing. I usually have a Starbucks planner every year, I really haven't thought of making the most out of this until I flipped on it today. On 2017, I will start scribbling on this one, I swear! For in 2017, I will start one great adventure of my life. This notebook wont contain my daily activities, but on it, I will write what ever it asks me to do so, like my favorite movies, songs I love to sing along with, how I feel, photos, scribbles and just anything the page asks me to. I will put dates on it and it will be a good one to lookback a few years after. I had accepted the fact that I would need to break my own declared tradition of Starbucks planner to make way for something different. As they have said, change has come. Hmmm.... I still need to look for a good handy daily planner. posted from Bloggeroid

Exceptionally Epic-Fail.

I went on a date today. Sort of a speed date. LOL. We were supposed to meet at 4pm, but since the traffic was really bad on a Saturday afternoon, I arrived at the meeting place around 4:25pm. I texted him and he said to wait for 15 minutes. He arrived 5:30pm. Since its already late to go to our supposed to be destination, we decided to go somewhere nearer. I don't know where to start off with everything. With him holding his phone allthroughout our conversations or with me having to repeat everything I said because he wasn't listening. I told him that I am in some sort of "controlled food intake" since my blood pressure spiked up high last night. It was our first time to meet and I noticed that he was a bit of "touchy". We had to cross a busy street and so maybe as part of his being "gentleman", he had to put his arms on my shoulder. He tried complimenting me about my looks saying I dont look my age. I look younger, he said. I just smiled