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Excellence for 2020

Conversations at home are becoming funnier and funnier over time. Making me miss dinner table hours and Sundays the most. 
Today, I filled out the yearcompass(dot)com form with my friend. 
She came over for lunch and brought some desserts. I cooked spaghetti in tomato and garlic sauce and I am just relieved that she liked it. 
After that, she helped me in translating some important pointers about the Principles of Jena Plan, which has been the heart of the curriculum that we are developing for the school. 
We almost forgot about the YC project because we were so engrossed with the conversation about the education sector, culture and just everything serious about what we do as teachers. 
Glad that we were able to complete it.
EXCELLENCE. -- that was the word I had put for 2020. 
2019 had been mostly for the sake of completing and getting things done. Let 2020 make up for it by having that mindset of giving the best, sharing the best and showing the best of myself in every piece of wor…

Keeping the cycle going.

I passed the test.
ALL PRAISE TO THE LORD!

I sent the message to our family group chat. I couldn't hide my excitement. I even cried for having that overflowing joy in my heart. I completely ignoring the upcoming, painstaking moments I will need to survive during the next 18-month journey. 
I passed the exam.  That exam that it took me next-to-never to take, schedule and adjust.  That exam that costed me a same-day flight back home because I had gone to the wrong airport on my way home from Osaka.  That exam that will open that door of crazy days, writer's block moments, and procrastinating hours.

This academic endeavour will definitely keep my heart beating.

I just remembered Dominique Francon in the book, The Fountainhead, she had a moment in her life that she chose to just keep going eventhough it seems like she is already dead, still she kept moving forward. She found her purpose in suffering and in the end, the circumstances brought her peace by choice and then to the even…

2020 is for Claiming

My word for the year 2020 is CLAIM.

In 2019, I had engineered my smallness and what I think I deserved. I kept things low and small and most of the time stopped big dreams and put on hold greater plans just because.... I felt safe in here.

The last year was a time for recharging and energy-saving. This year, 2020, is about the time to use those I have gathered.

Claiming big goals.
Claiming greater strength is accepting rejections and failures.
Claiming humility in every goal achieved.
Claiming accountability for every shortcoming.
Claiming responsibility for every promise.
Claiming honesty for feelings.
Claiming vulnerability for the need to be with someone.
Claiming love for one person, for people around me and for my advocacy.

Claim. Claiming. Claimed.

With every CLAIM, there is prayer to the Lord.
With every CLAIMING, there is honor for the Lord.
With every CLAIMED, there is sharing of the blessing from the Lord.

Writing this down so that when I feel like giving up, I have somethin…

To A Decade It Had Been

Finding words to describe a thought is a struggle, especially when it has to be just one word. A word to describe a year, what more for a word to describe a decade. 
Indeed, ending 2019 isn't just about closing a year in itself. It is about walking past a decade of our lives and welcoming a new frontier. 
I started the decade with a newfound love and learning the ropes of romantic relationships, immersing myself in the BPO sector and fulfilling my goal of helping out my siblings be sent to universities. 
Then came, the almost we-are-getting-married moment, the hurtful break up, the comeback on online datings, the wrong expectations and the brokenheartedness because I am so ignorant on how to deal with flirting and then the ghosting. It had been cyclical-- of getting into the circle and pledging not to ever get back to it, but then, would have my eventual slips and feelings of pain, doubt and my fear that I hope not to reach that point of indifference. 
Career had made a complete 1…

Sunday Blues

Of the many things I can do, sitting down and typing here about my life is what I always look forward to. Eventhough, I cannot really do it most of the time. I wanna type about it as if it has significance, as if it is important, as if it something another person would want to know about how my day had gone.

I spent the morning for chores. The usual laundry, folding and cleaning and just really trying to tidy up. Whipped up some breakfast and cup of coffee. Thought of how I what could happen for the day and what to look forward to. There was a bit of disappointment that my friend couldn't come to the party but I also excited to know who I am going to meet in the party.

I was so slow this morning, enjoying the final chapters of the book I am reading that I didn't notice time to pass by so quickly making me miss my scheduled bus and had to come in late. The host was so nice enough to offer to pick me up in front of my school because we had no idea about the nearest bus stop to t…

The Cycle Has Been Broken

Oh.

How can I break the cycle?

Stop. Confront. Hate and then Move on.

That is how you break the cycle, Kat.

To which, you can give yourself a pat on the back, Kat for having done so. So, STOP- check! Confront? Is there a need? I don't think so. Just drop it altogether. You have better things to do in life just to deal with that kind of person. HAYST. It was never your loss and all these realizations will be your gain, altogether.

Care no more. For that person. As if he cared that you are hurt. If he had thought of it, his brain would have realized it even before he opened his mouth. End of conversation.

Move on. You are good at it. Be better and make sure that when he sees you someday, he will have the feel of cringing at the spot where is standing out of shame just by looking at who you have become.

Continue being amazing.

Ramen Buddy Coming up!

Dark skies has been covering the skies this whole Sunday. 
Dark skies, intermittent drizzles, chilly air. A very gloomy winter day. 
I got up very early to prepare myself for the school's Christmas Party. It all went well. I know that it will just be busy so I stuffed myself with heavy breakfast and went on with the day. It was such a fun party for the kids and their families. 
I have started to have Christmas blues and been battling the tears but I guess they are bound to flow any moment from now anyway. 
I thought of diverting my feelings to my craving for tomato ramen and how kind the universe is to me when one of my new friends this year agreed to accompany me and find me a ramen shop to satisfy my craving. 
As of this typing, he said he is on his way.
I am nursing a headache, maybe because of being tired, hunger and the gloomy weather. I decided to stay in the coffee shop until I am ready to feel alone at the comforts of my home, while asking my friend to accompany me for a r…