Push.

Im suddenly losing hope for myself.

The past 2nd and ongoing 3rd week are quite rough for me. I wasn't able to teach my kids. I don't even know where to start should I enlist them. I dont even want to think of all those moments.

Today, I had taught for 10 minutes, then I stopped and just stared at all of them.

Boys at the back were just so unruly.

Wont listen to me, I would drag them back to their seats, but in a few minutes they are standing again and going around the room, outside the classroom and just making noise.

Girls on their seats are fighting each other.

They cant read. They dont know how to write. But I have to teach them Science.

I am frustrated just like them.

Tomorrow, I will start my afterclass Reading Remedial Sessions with them. They are actually more excited for it than our lesson.

These kids were promoted to grade three without even knowing how to read nor write their names. Phonics recognition is very low. Mastery of mother tongue is also very low. So help me God. I dont know if I am doing anything right as of this moment.

21 comments:

  1. kaya yan! alam mo yan ang problema sa public, hindi na ata nagbabagsak. :/

    pero kaya yan! ienjoy mo lang yung bawat araw. don't be too hard on yourself :)

    p.s kala ko HS ka dati napunta

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    1. I signed up for this for two years and kelangan kong panindigan to...

      There are moments na naiiyak na po ako sa frustration like today. Kasi hindi ko po tlga alam kung san ako magsisimula, pano ko magcoconnect sa kanila.. All 57 of them....

      Thanks Sir Mots! I visit your site every now and then kasi it makes me smile and feel good about public school :D Sana po makita ko kayo sa Saturday.

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  2. San ka nakasign up? Teach for the Philippines?

    Kaya yan! Kakayanin yan! :)

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  3. Yes Sir :D Kelangan kayanin sir!

    Pero I didnt declare this personal blog to them. :P

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  4. ahaha buti pa mga student may teacher na kami nga 4 meetings na wala pa rin prof :D

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    1. ganun talaga sa college... nagpapakita na lang sila kapag mageexam... hehehe

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  5. Likas na talaga sa mga chikiting ang sobrang kulet. Kaya chaga chaga lang Kat ^_^ Ikaw pa ba ang susuko sa mga batang yans? XD

    Fight, kaya yan!

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    1. yes.. go lang... pusshhh.... physically tiring yet kakayanin.....

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  6. wow... may support group ka na agad... first 2 comments came from teachers....

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    1. yes, senyor.. overwhelming... i actually cried nung nabasa ko.. seryoso.. kasi sobrang disheartened na ko yet they are there, with positive insights and their words of support...

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  7. how about 2 years of being bad ass teacher ka kaya? yung tipong for the rest of their buhay maaalala ka nila? hindi ko alam kung ano pakiramdam ng magturo sa public pero kaya mo yan. isagad mo na mula sa kaibuturan ng iyong nerve.

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    1. define bad ass teacher? hehehe.. ang hirap maging bad ass teacher to them. they are cute kids.. kaso sobrang kulit....

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  8. It's a catastrophe! But don't lose heart. If you were called to be a teacher and answered the call, remember that there is always and will be providence, for God will never forget the meek, the helpless, and the children. Most of all, He will never leave those who are doing the Lord's work.

    Maganda na rin na you posted something like this here. It's important that people are made aware of certain situation. Hopefully we can do something to help.

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    1. andaming loopholes sa sistema... pero for now, i just want to focus on the kids at sa sarili ko....

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  9. i can relate. :) dapat sandamakmak patience sa pagtuturo. on the hindsight, grade 3 na sila yet they dont know how to read? what happened to their pre school and grade 1-2 years? tsk tsk tsk! i thought my kids to read before they're 3 years old and it wasnt a breeze. good luck na lang :)

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    1. yes... im working with the last four sections ng grade three sa school.. kahit sabihin na heterogenous ang mga bsta, most of them, di pa marunong magpantigpantig. nakakaawa. gustuhin ko man na isaisahin sila sa pagbasa, hindi ko kakayanin kasi 55 sila... at science dapat ang ituro ko...sobrang hirap....

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  10. yaicks how come di pa si marunong bumasa
    I mean grade three dapat mejo oks na sila sa part na yan,
    anyway oks lang yan,
    umpisa pa lang naman ee
    tyaga lang mam

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    1. how come? i have the same effin question... hehe.. pero anjan na sila kaya eto tyaga tyaga lang din.... push!

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  11. You are a good teacher and I believe you will find the idea how to reach to their hearts because it is the only way that can make them undertand that they need to learn. I wish you good luck and will include you in my prayer.

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    1. thank you mami joy :D I need everyone's prayer.. thats what keeps me going.

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  12. Good luck. their future lies in your hands.

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