Randomthoughts 18 June 2015

4:25 AM

Antagal ko ng walang random post. Once a month dapat meron.

1. Feeling ko sobrang toasted ang brain ko lately. Dami ko lang iniisip.

2. I'm back to nightshift. It was a choice I had made hindi dahil ayoko ng magturo kundi gusto ko munang .... hindi ko rin alam... So, you see, I'm at lost again.

3. Laging tanong yan sakin, bat ako bumalik dito. Ang hirap sagutin. Promise.

4. May hinihintay ako. Nag-attempt akong makakuha ng sagot, sabi nya tatawagan nya ko, pero hindi nya ginawa. One of these days, sana makonsensya sya at tawagan nya ko dala ang isang magandang balita. Napakagandang balita. Kung hindi naman, ok lang. Iiyak ako. Tapos G! na sa Plan B.

5. Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture.

6. Mood swings. Oh mood swings.

7. Andami kong babasahin. Pero andami ko din dapat i-OT. So, yeah, pa-flip-flip lang.

8. Parang itong buong taon to, mauubos ko yata sa realignment ulit ng buhay ko?

9. Gusto ko lang magsulat nang magsulat pero wala naman akong mabuong may katuturan, ending tuloy puro na lang backspace or delete or select all then delete.

10. Yung totoo, gusto ko lang umiyak.

4:47 AM


15 comments:

  1. May pinagdadaanan ka ata babykat? I'm just a message away if you need me. :)

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    1. Hanggang messages na lang tayo.. Ang lapit natin sa isa't-isa pero hindi man lang mag-swak ang schedds nating lahat. :'( *tears*

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    2. Ganyan talaga kapag career-oriented na kayo. When you start to lose contact with old friends, then promition is coming.... bittersweet lang...

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    3. Yung sched nating dalawa pwede. lol
      Mas marami, mas mahirap hanapan ng sched to meet up.
      Usually kung ano pa yung biglaan, yun pa yung natutuloy. :P

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  2. 1. Relax your neurons every once in a while. I know how it feels. Pero piliin mo kung paano mo irerelax ang utak mo. Ako kasi na focus sa pagkain. Hehehe!

    2. Madalas din akong night shift sa trabaho by choice.... tumataas kasi ang sweldo. Iba talaga kapag money-oriented no? Hehehe! May mga panahon na hindi ko talaga nakita ang sikat ng araw. Vampire lang ang peg....

    3. Are you even required to explain yourself? Why do you have to explain? Kung sabagay, if you are able to explain something, that means you know your direction or purpose.

    4. Ano yan ha?

    5. Sino yan? Ok lang yan. Ako nga gagawin pang best-man sa kasal ng true love ko. Sa tingin mo mas masaklap yang sayo? Girl, mayroon pa ring mas tanga sayo (tulad ko) kaya wag kang malungkot.

    6. Meron din ako niyan kapag may mental regla ako. Hahaha!

    7. Procrastination alert!!!! Sabagay, cramming and procrastination were my daily bread pero nakapasa pa rin ako sa exam. So push mo na rin yan.

    8. We always realign our lives. The important thing is that we welcome changes and we do our best to deal with it.

    9. Keep a notebook. Isulat mo lahat doon. Ganyan talaga yan. Let it flow until you enter the creative phase.

    10. Then cry. Down one shot of tequila then cry again. Repeat until you realize that you should be keeping yourself busy with something else and be productive.

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    1. Thanks Sir Trips :D Isa ka talagang alamat. Haha.

      Alam ko naman kung bakit ko gusto mag-nighshift ulit. Tama ka, it's all about the money.. With a sister and my own tuition coming up, I don't see any quick other quick answer to my questions. LOL.

      Ayoko na malasing. So three straight days, I am poppin' pills to sleep after 10-11 hours of work. Woohoo! Not good, I know :(

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  3. Parang iisa lang ang trend, hindi ka masaya Cher Kat. Lahat naman tayo may ganito, may hinagpis, may mga pagbabagong pinagdadaanan at kailangan labanan. Kanya kanya rin tayong pakikipag laban. Buti at naisulat, na ishare para naman kahit paano, it makes those heavy feelings a bit light.

    Sagutin ko number 2- if I am not mistaken you like to teach pero maliit talaga ang sahod. You wanted to go back sa corporate world so you can do what you wanted. Ganito na lang, make a focus, then work on it. Halimbawa pera, then sipag sipag lang sa corporate world mo, then pag may ipon you can make pasyal then one of your loved activities is fulfilled. May objective bawat pagsisikap. Sa teaching kasi, you can do it anytime you like dahil wala namang age limit dito unless 60 ka na. I hope this helps.

    Sagut ko sa number 5- eh di mag holding hands ka rin with someone. Kung may reaction siyang violent, then may gusto siya sa iyo. Kung wala, ikaw lang ang may gusto. So wag ka munang magtampo or magselos.

    Yan na muna, saka na tayo magusap ng matagal. :)

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    1. Hugs Cher Jo! I am just so blessed to have people like you in my life.

      my facebook is filled with stories about school and kids and nakkainggit na tunay :( I haven't had much Sunday school stories to tell yet.

      As for that person, I dont think it would matter at all, in the first place, alam ko namang hindi nya ko gusto. He was just being nice to me all along.

      My teeny heart aches :'(

      But overall, I am ok. Ang bilis lang naman magswitch ng mood kung gugustuhin and my issues are just way too small compared to that of others.

      Mahabang kwentuhan pls....

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  4. Call center girl ka na pala ulit Cher Kat :)

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    1. Not necessarily call center fiel :) more on accounting and clerical work ang ginagawa ko ngayon and maybe another thing that got me so stressed out ay yung kelangan kong mapag-aralan agad-agad yung mga general accounting principles in a very very short span of time.

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  5. Number 5! Number 5! Share mo yan sa kapehan. Lol.

    ps. kung nagamit ko yung isa kong account sa pagcomment, pakidelete nalang. thanks thanks.

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    1. Number 5 talaga? Sana sa susunod na kapehan, ikaw naman yung may mahabang kwento about sa lovelife mo :P

      Ahah! may othe account ka pa ha! Stalker! lols...

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  6. No. 5. Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture. Parang ang gandang dugtungan Yccos, tulad nito:

    a.) Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture. Lalaki rin yung nasa picture.
    b.) Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture. Hands lang talaga ang hawak mo. As in hands lang, walang katawan.
    c.) Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture. Nananaginip lang pala ako.
    d.) Nakita ko may ka-holding hands ka sa picture. Tas nakita mo rin ako, me ka-holding hands sa video.

    Chill lang Yccos.hehe. Things will get better.:)

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    1. Bebefroi, sa dami ng mga nakalagay, jan ka talaga nag-focus? Salamat ha! LOLS.

      Self-diagnosed bipolar yata ako. Katulad nito, nung naisulat ko na yan at read responses, I felt better. One thing about the blogworld had given me is the comfort of writing to let out my emotions. Too much of it. Something I am still learning to control eversince.

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