Trip with the Tripster


I have met one of my idols and supercrush in the blogworld last 02.07.2015!

Mr. Tripster Guy!

I tried not to be late, but I was late for an hour. Good thing this guy knows how to entertain himself. Instead of that ice cream parlor as rendezvous, I found him in a bookstore.

He is far from the buddha figure in his profile photo. Much as I want to post his photo, I was given very strict instruction not to post any evidence of his existence.

Well, ice cream then after a couple of hours, coffee fueled our conversations. We had non-stop conversations just about anything. But that topics that really made him shift more comfortably on his seat are books, reading, writing and politics, the Marcoses--- Imelda in particular. His passion about politics is very evident that I learned so much about the Philippine political systems and issues. He lives in another country but is way more informed about the Philippine politics that I do! I wish I can ask more questions but the four hours was not enough. I wish we had more time. Sobrang bitin!

In almost all meet ups like this, it's always like time flies so fast! Soooooo fast! I am just always so grateful for them taking time to meet in person. I am so glad I get to read his blogs and definitely honored to meet him in person, too! The aloof and suplado-type of writer can be not-so-forever-anonymous pala. We seem to jive at almost everything including boys. Hahaha.

Who doesn't love Nutella?! He gave me a Nutella spread as pasalubong. I didn't bring anything for him as I had no idea what could fit his liking and interest. Good thing, I have a filipino-authored novel I think I will never take time to read and he is the best person to have it. We met again the following day so I can give it to him and let him write on my little black notebook of memories.

When we parted ways bid our goodbyes and made that final beso-beso, I turned my back with mixed feelings. Overflowing happiness, there's tons of kiligs and a bit of panghihinayang. This guy, is the type of guy I would fall for. Only that, it can never ever be. How could I fall for a guy who happens to like guys as well? If not, I seem to have an affnity with the bad guys. What's wrong with me? Lol! Of course, nothing's wrong. The universe just tells me to wait. Hehehehe..
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Thoughts on Parenting

December 24, 2014

Kiddo: may anak kna ate?
Me: wala pa.
Kiddo: bakit?
Me: wala pa kasi akong asawa
Kiddo: pwede namang may anak pero walang asawa.
Me: .......
Kiddo: sinong katabi mong matulog?
Me: wala. Ako lang.... 

Bakit andami mong tanong? Anak ba kita? Hahahaha

She is an adopted daughter my mom told me. I saw her every Sunday at church but we never really get to talk nor play a lot. But this Sunday, I stayed late in church for our performance later that evening, so we slept together in the chamber but we never really got that sleep because she is one little, cute chatterbox. Reminds me of myself. Hahaha

I wonder what made her ask me those questions. 

She is actually right. I can have a child without a father. It USED TO BE my plan. Until the day my father asked why. Why do I want such an arrangement when I was never deprived of the opportunity to grow up with a loving father. Another thing that changed my mind was the experience to of being a teacher. Working with kids with diverse backgrounds made me see things in a different light. 

February 17, 2015

Bearing a child is already a hard task and raising a child is an entirely different story. With almost all family members clamoring for marriage and babies, I just can't keep up and it's tiring to explain myself over and over again. 

Badtrip lang eh. LOL. 

I think this country needs to have a school for parenting. I will definitely enroll. Because really, looking at those kids in school, knowing their stories, I can't help but be shocked and I wanna scream at their parents. 

Three kids in one classroom. Different mothers. One father.

Parent giving gifts to teacher because her child is a non-reader

Two girls sexually-abused by their own father

Kids being sent to buy liquor at the store

And a whole lot more!

It is a scary thing to think about. But the joy and excitement it brings is also something that I cannot stop thinking about. 

Kudos to my parents for raising me and my siblings to the best that they can and to all the parents out there for a job well done for raising responsible and loving children!  



To Date or Not To Date

It's the 14th of February and love is in the air! I remember I used to be active on a dating site but hadn't checked it for awhile now. 


Here's my dating profile that never really landed me on any dates from that site.  If you are familiar with the format, you are most likely on that site too! Hahaha. 

My self-summary
Extrovert. Intuitive. Thinking. Judging. 

What I’m doing with my life

I work for an NGO deployed as a Third Grade teacher in the largest public elementary school in QC.

Day-to-day stuff keeps me busy. During weekdays, I wake up at 4am to prepare breakfast and for school as well. There will be days that I may just have to leave in a rush because I am running late, won't prepare breakfast but I always make it a point to fix my bed. Every day, whenever I get home after school, the first I do is throw my shoes and socks off, take off my clothes and sleep for the next couple of hours.

I am currently taking up my MA studies somewhere and that what usually keeps me busy on the weekends.

I seem to have grown love for the kitchen. I can say that my specialty is Spicy Tuna Pasta and Chicken Noodle Soup. Every now and then, I take time to check the web for easy recipes I could work on. Internet hasn't failed me on that part yet.

My fellowship will end as the school year ends. For now, I am preoccupied with searches for future employment. It's kinda hard and scary. Going back to the corporate jungle will not be that easy.

I love reading. I can stay in one place for a long time if I have book, strawberry milkshake or caramel macchiatto. 

I’m really good at

Tough love.

Singing in the shower.

Multi-tasking. 

The first things people usually notice about me

I don't smile.

I'm like Professor Dolores Umbridge of the movie Harry Potter. 

Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food

Starting to love John Maxwell. I know other people may find it too late for me to have just discovered his books. But yeah, judge me, I just found out about them because I am needing his wisdom just now.

Coelho books- there are only a few that I havent read of his books.

Albom books- though his theme would usually be melancholic and sad, I really love the lessons that I get from his books.

Murakami books- I just like the dark and gloomy themes of his books. I usually can finish it in a few days especially when I am at my down moments.

Drop Dead Diva- not that I am racing to keep up with her size in the series, but I like her wit, her being classy and the way she carries herself.

Fringe- because it's so nerdy. Makes me love physics more and more!

Big Bang Theory? I'm sort of the Sheldon Cooper female version when it comes to sarcasm. 

The six things I could never do without

Family
Something to read
Planner
Internet
Bed
Food 

I spend a lot of time thinking about

What will I do after the current school year ends--- honestly,

What will I cook for dinner.

What will I write on my blog. 

On a typical Friday night I am

I'm home alone. 

The most private thing I’m willing to admit

I cry a lot when I'm drunk. 

I’m looking for

  • Straight men only
  • Ages 20–45
  • Near me
  • Who are single
  • For new friends, long-term dating, short-term dating 

You should message me if

*you love debates and argumentative conversations
*you love camping and climbing mountains
*you wanna have coffee
* you could drink a bottle of beer right in front of me without talking
*you are willing to check test papers
*you are fun and sensible
*you are a non-smoker
*you are ready to be in a real relationship/friendship

Flowers on a Thursday

02.12.2015

It was supposed to be an ordinary Thursday. Thursday being my favorite day makes it a wonderful day.

I came extra early to school. Though I was feelong a bit dizzy and my stomach felt a bit bad because I drank coffee and took my vitamins without eating normal breakfast. I haven't cooked anything since the weekend and had been reliant on what is prepared in school. i had fough the urge of eating at a fastfood chain except for a cup of hot chocolate at Jollibee.

It was the fourth day of taking care of a class because their teacher-adviser is not around due to some contest training. The kids had been a routine and as I was prepping for my daily task at the teacher's table at the back, my co-fellow told me that I had left something at the gate and that I if I have time I should claim it soon.

I was a bit puzzled, thinking what kind of stuff had I left or dropped in school. I can't remember any of my things missing. Since I am free, I decided to visit the guard's station to ask for my things only to be surprised when the guard smilingly handed me a bouquet of flowers!

Imagine my surprise!

A big bouquet of flowers!!!

Two dozen of roses! 23 whites and a big red rose at the center of it.

On the note it only say:
To: Kat
From: JP

Good morning!
If you have time, please check your email after work.
:)

I had to ask Manong Guard if it was really for me.
He asked, "Teacher Kat daw po, eh. Grade 3 kayo diba?
I said, " Opo, sigurado po ba kayo? Baka po kasi hindi lang ako ang Kat dito."

But he said it was really meant for me. A guy dropped it off very early that day. I came to school around 5:45 it was still dark and the person who brought it must have really been up early to come to school.


I only know a couple of JPs as far as I can remember. But none of them I think would ever thought of sending me flowers. The flowers brought so much good vibes that on my way back to the classroom, one parent handed me a styrofoam with delicious spaghetti and a small soda and a small side table plastic red roses. I am having so much fun receiving gifts that day. I couldn't wipe off the smile on my face. I couldn't hide my "kilig". My co-fellows had been so kilig as well that they even taught the kids to ask me, " Teacher Kat, kinikilig ba?" then I jusg start to giggle. The older teachers had to go up to my classroom and look for the flowers. Asking so many questions.

I waited for the email and it finally arrived early that night. The flowers came from one of my facebook friends whom I had never met in person. He sent his message via a 4-minute voice clip in which he even sang a song. He is somebody I met through an online chat system awhile back. He would every now and drop me messages on facebook. That was our mere connection and I am really surprised when I found out it was him who sent me the flowers.

My heart swells with so much gratefulness! I keep asking myself, what have I done to deserve such surprise! I was speechless for a little while. I was on Skype with my sister and my mom but I wasn' t focused so I decided to just end the conversation. Yeah, I know my sister was excited about it but I was simply lost for words. Definitely, I will make time to share the whole story later this evening.

I am just so grateful and kilig! Sobra-sobra! Not every girl would receive flowers. But for me, this year, this is my second time receiving a bouquet of flowers. Really makes my mood and my day so bright.

How could I thank JP enough? I really don't know how!

All I can say is "Thank you. Your gesture made me feel so special. Happy Valentine's Day!"

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TTCT Feels

Not one but three of my friends, told me that they remembered me while watching That Thing Called Tadhana. These people are close friends whom most likely I had shared my story. My deep, dark secrets and my drunken-state-of-being. 

Second time na itong na-i-re-relate ko ang aking buhay-buhay sa isang movie around February. Ultimate hugot lines. Ultimate hugot movie.

Whose heart are you and why are you here?

I had been having that feeling of heaviness. I also don't know where it's coming from, it's just became heavy. I kind of have learned to live with it every day. I tried seeking whose heart it is, only to feel that it just gets heavier when I don't get the right answer I want to hear.

The same question I have:

Panget ba ako?
May magkakagusto pa ba sakin?
Magkakarelasyon pa ba ko?

Yang pagmamahal na pinakikita mo. Yang overwhelming na pagmamahal na yan. Imposibleng walang patunguhan. Hindi man galing sa taong pinagbibigyan mo noon pero babalik at babalik yan sayo.

One thing, the two years had taught me is the ultimate art of patience and faith. So, yes, I am waiting.

Wag mong hayaang may magtulak sa kanya pabalik sayo. 
Hatakin mo hanggang kaya mo.
Eh sorry, mahal kita. 



Makes me think, have I tried enough back then? 

Malungkot lang ako, pero hindi ako mag-isa. 

Reminds me that no matter how sad I feel, I am still surrounded with love from a lot of people I know.

I wish I did what she did in the movie--stood on top of the mountain and scream all my pains and cry without shame. But for me, the mountains dont deserve my pains. But going somewhere without any fixed itinerary, I have done that in Iloilo. Screaming my lungs out in a videoke, I have done that. I sang the Aegis, Roxette, and Starship Troopers. 

Angelica's character reminds me of myself. Really. Bipolar lang. LOL.

I have lost my heart and am living that pointy life just like any other arrows who lost theirs, it gets tiring but I try to remember that I am not alone and  one day, that very same heart that slipped off from my arrow and got lost will show up in front of me, get my attention and there will be no need for words. As I live my pointy life, one day, the same lost heart will ask me, "Excuse me, have you lost your heart?" 

Still, tadhana was unidentified. The ending was left for the viewer to fill. No matter how realistic it had tried to be, it still had attempted to put that idealistic love story, left for the viewer to complete. Who knows? We can never know the destiny of others, but we know what our hearts wants and seeks for. It is filled with overwhelming love that will be returned by the right person at the right time.

I watched Starting Over Again four times last year. Thrice in the movie house with different set of friends and on a bus bound for Bicol. This one, I won't mind watching it again and again until the hugot lines don't affect me anymore. Will it ever not?

With all the Hugot Movies around, I think, I had found my excuses to fall in love, get heartbroken and then fall in love again. It's a cycle until I end up with the right ending.

*****
Nauna pa tuloy to ma-post kesa sa date ko with Sir Trips. Tsk.


Define Pag-ibig Kiddie Version

Disclaimer: These are not outputs from any of the classes I handle at the moment. These are from my housemate's kids and I asked his permission if I can post this. He agreed.

Have fun reading and let me know your pick on the comments below :)

Nasa Youtube naman pala eh! 

Salawahan type. Tsk. Tsk.

Ayieee... Away-Bati.

Ito ang peborit ko!

Of course, swak na coffee na, lover pa!

Deep red cherries. 

Hindi ko alam. My green mind is telling me something else. Bad! 

And so I have to pray for a cleaner thought.

Casper type! Can I keep you?!

Everything is in google, including you! 

Light up my life!

Happy Puso Ebribadi!

Gulugod Piggy Trek with Friends

Noong Jan 31, natuloy din ang muntik nang maudlot na Trek with Friends to Gulugod Piggy sa Mabini. I had deep thoughts if I wanna write about this or not but since it is February, might as well join the bandwagon of talking about love!

Kinabukasan while resting on our way pababa, one of my friends just blurted out... "Kat, ano bang mali sa'yo? Bat hanggang ngayon wala ka pang boyfriend?!

Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaction dapat.
" Waaaaa.. Hindi ko alam! Wait lang, naiiyak ako!"
Kumuha ako ng tissue at pinigilan ang luha ko. Inulit nya pa uli t angbtanong. Kaibigan ko ba talaga to?! Lol

Riding a tricycle on our way to the city,
"Kat, sorry sa tanong ko kanina."
"Ok lang yun. Natanong ko din naman yan sa sarili ko noon."
"Ano nga kasi yung mali para itama yun."
"Sakin naman, I think, walang mali. Walang mali sa atin. Wala pa lang talaga yung perfect match,"

End of friendship. Joke lang. End of conversation.

To think that there is something wrong is wrong itself. I believe that there is nothing wrong in him or me that's why we're both singles. To think that there is something is just another way of thinking too high of oneself. Too high in terms of fault-finding.

Repairing is way difficult than starting from scratch. In trying to fix oneself, one would have to focus on the mistake, the wrong, the negative and how to transform it to someone better. I find it stressful because one would have to make amends based on the wrong and not on the goal.

Eliminating entirely what is wrong and focusing on being happy is a better approach. Happiness and contentment as goals. Doing acts and deeds to achieve such goals is a more positive way of approaching it. Finding the perfect one means we ought to shape ourselves to be that perfect match for whoever that someone is along the way. The universe will conspire. And maybe God will be generous enough to offer you the entire universe. After all, when one falls in love, our universe gets built around that someone and it should be expanding because your dreams and hopes had combined. If it shrinks and seems to become a blackhole which gravitates your energy and the things around you, leaving you with nothing or emptiness, then I don't think that person is the one.

Back to the conversation.

"Aminin mo, nakakalungkot mag-isa."
"Kaya nga tayo may friends."
"Naiinggit nga ko sa mga kaibigan nating may partners na. Ang tapang nila. Ako kasi natatakot ako kaya siguro ganun.
" I think naman kapag na-meet mo na yung person na sobrangbgusto mo, magiging matapang ka din."
"Three years na kong single, I tried dating a few guys who I think gusto ko pero wala talaga eh. Might as well, take a rest and gumawa ng iba pang mga bagay. Ayoko lang talagang maging idle kaya kahit tinatamad akong magbasa, I still try to read. Tina-try ko ding iwasan muna ang facebook, or the entire social media itself kasi it stirs a lot negative emotions sakin tulad ng inggit and lungkot. Eto nga, nag-aral ako to keep myself busy. And syempre, I pray. Pinagpe-pray ko na ibigay ni God yung right person for me."
"Sorry talaga sa tanong na yun. Di ko naman alam na iiyak ka."
" It's ok. Ano ka ba. F.O. na tayo. Charot lang."

We're still friends. Very good friends :)

Today is the second of February, as that marketing strategy of celebrating Love Month starts, please be advised that it's not just for couples and lovers. Love is for everybody. For oneself and for others. For sharing.

Cheers to singleness, family and friends! Cheers to love!

Also, February is National Arts Month! Let's take time visit museum, take time to appreciate all kinds of arts and unleash the artsy-fartsy in us!

First stop for my attempt to visit museums will be on Saturday at the National Museum :)

As for that someone, I guess it wasn't meant to be searched at all, it's just gonna be found!

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