Life of a Kat

Finally changed the alarm clock from 6:45 to 7:30.  The daily temperature is getting cooler and just more cozy to just stay in bed and roll. But no. We don't want that.  Submitted my re-admission request for my master's degree in UPOU. Hoping it will get me back up and running, but honestly just praying for a mentor, an advisor that can lead me through. But I guess, that will just be myself.  I only have more than a year to spare for this selfish goal. After that, I have to focus on home-making and making use of my genes and of course, taking care of my husband. It has been quite a journey for us.  This year has been an opportunity to recover and move and hopefully get back into a healthier shape that is more ready for what is yet to come. 

A Filipino Olympian made himself a legend at Olympics 2024 by winning 2 gold medals at different gymnastics category.  Gold medal/s he had been preparing for all his life and what has probably just been his life ever since.  His best advice has been: Just show up.  As he has been doing so in all his training days. And look at him now, all eyes on him as he enjoys the fruits of his lifetime labor.  Meanwhile, as for me, all I wanted is to just gain the strength and energy back again, I obviously had earned back in the days , weeks and months that I showed up and moved my body, enjoyed the sweat, and pain and now, it just seems so hard to do.  The audacity of myself to give up on me. How can she do it me. But I don’t think she has given up on me? It’s too early to say. I think it is again and again that taken for granted attitude of procrastination that is pulling me back from my goals. 

 I have been scrolling on social media endlessly, again and again. Again?  The awareness is there but the desire to stop and live life as it is, seem just hard to find and paralized as it is, might as well soak in the deep doom of scrolldom I did.  I have been unhappy inwardly for all things that I should be grateful for. After all, the things that I have right now were things I used to pray for.  The people and tribe I have around me right now, bring me so much joy and purpose.  The family has been strong and I pray that they continue to be stronger and healthier every day.  The husband has always been cheerful and active and positive about life and adventure. Of course we have our down days and that's the reality of it. In every prayer, I ask the Lord to give us patience, strength and unending love for each other so that we maybe able to fulfill the desires of hearts for our ownselves and for us a couple.  I watched Maricar's interview on Tony Talks and I am happy that I was

 Black Forceps is a Japanese medical drama I recently finished.  I can't say it has the best line up of actors and actresses. But since I am a sucker for medical dramas, I got hooked into it.  The poetic lines were also applaudable up to a cringe level, but heck, I learned so much from it. Mostly, unkind words, bossy orders in Japanese. HAHA.  I still liked it. Stan. Ugh. I forgot whatever that Gen-Z word I want to use.  My obsession for finishing up when starting something got me glued into this 10-episode Jdrama, coz though the acting were all weird and just predictable, in many angles, the final episode still took me dumb-founded, jaw-dropped and hanging just because the ending wasn't really finished.  Until the next review no one asked for! 

 How's life been going for you? I am still here, not feeling stuck anymore but kinda slow and moving.  Am I happy? I don't know. But if you ask me if I am grateful? ... A big YES! for every single thing there is?  Not much big plans this year and just really being able to live life as it is.  I don't know. It seems that sitting down and typing this like this takes much time? I am considering Video Diaries moving forward.. HMMMMMMM... 

We woke up a bit late and heavy after sleeping late because we watched the applauded REWIND from the recently concluded Metro Manila Film Fest.  I was never a really a follower of the movie scene in general, but every now and then, it makes sense to follow the good crowd for recommendations.  Rewind was a movie about man who asked for a second chance, to save his wife's life. To go back in time and make amends with all the people he had hurt. In exchange, his own life will be taken, in exchange for the primary scene that the wife died.  In real life, there is no Rewind. There is no going back, but it doesn't mean that there is no time for amends and reparation of damages. But albeit, to save one from all the troubles of regrets, the movie taught us that life should be lived with kindness, boldness and forgiveness.  It weighs on the heart to be unforgiving, there is so much anger and hate.  It feels heavy on the feet to perform daily tasks that are not done with gladness and per