Life of a Kat

Bedtime as it is. So here I amThe contractions as becoming more obvious but still not the frequent but knowing that it can happen anytime, I am on the verge of impatience, wanting to rush the moments of labor but I knew in me that that's not how this things work.  I should be letting nature and my body take its own course and time. I should be taking care of my body, knowing that no matter how healthy I could be, if things go wrong, anything could happen to me and the baby.  I have been having this crazy thoughts in my head all the time, the fears, the wrongs and all the negatives that can happen, and/or nothing entirely of them could happen to me.  As I embrace boredom and the mundane, I am praying for a safe delivery and a healthy, cute little baby girl to call my own daughter. Imagining how my mom had felt the first time she held me, as I am the first daughter in the family after having 2 older brothers. As of this moment, I am standing up and feeling the contractions ...

 Sleep has been somewhat irregular. As I approach the final days of pregnancy and anticipating labor and delivery, sleeping itself proved to be a challenge, with a very big belly, heavy body and crazy feelings with anticipation and a bit of worry about the future.  Also, I had been so caught up with all the Flood Control controversy and senate hearing in the Philippines, that even now, I get distracted writing this as I browse through all the reddit feeds. If its not on fb, then its gonna be reddit. Can't imagine the worse it could get if I also have X and Threads to look into.  A month of being unemployed and this has been life. Glad to have been able to control weight gain until within the borders of expectations, but life had simply been full of the mundane tasks, very few can be considered accomplishments, still disappointment about my scrolling habits, and still struggling to improve on it, working on little ways to fight it every now and then. Nevertheless, I am not...

Apparently, there are 4 pillars of Corruption: The Corrupter, the Corrupt, Impunity and Tolerance.  I would like to see it as something like this:  Corrupters: the enablers, mastermind, untouched, cannot be mentioned, and ones who made rules Corrupts: the mobilizers, the people in between, the faces that we see, used to be good but then they turned bad. If they become really good at what they do, they either sit next to or replace the upper Corrupters. Or if betrayed,  eventually turn out to be the sacrificial lambs promised to comfort while serving sentence, just to keep confidence with the leadership.  Impunity: the hoax that is the investigative bodies  built and hearings conducted but never really get to expose the real corrupters  Tolerance: the voters kept in poverty, lack of education and survival level of living- continually depending on menial social services provided, the workers who pay taxes but never get to enjoy the privileges of good housing,...