28 Sept 2025

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Bedtime as it is. So here I amThe contractions as becoming more obvious but still not the frequent but knowing that it can happen anytime, I am on the verge of impatience, wanting to rush the moments of labor but I knew in me that that's not how this things work. 

I should be letting nature and my body take its own course and time. I should be taking care of my body, knowing that no matter how healthy I could be, if things go wrong, anything could happen to me and the baby. 

I have been having this crazy thoughts in my head all the time, the fears, the wrongs and all the negatives that can happen, and/or nothing entirely of them could happen to me. 

As I embrace boredom and the mundane, I am praying for a safe delivery and a healthy, cute little baby girl to call my own daughter. Imagining how my mom had felt the first time she held me, as I am the first daughter in the family after having 2 older brothers.

As of this moment, I am standing up and feeling the contractions but I don't think that this is already the start of the labor? But who knows? So far it has been manageable and fleeting. If I go back to bed, it probably would ease up, but I wont still be able to sleep. 

I probably just need to poop after this, I'll try that and maybe that would let me go back to bed, and sleep. 

I have been watching some videos about labor and delivery and I would like to aim for a labor and delivery record of two hours, and avoid C-section as much as possible. 

So far the contraction is still ongoing and the toilet is calling me. LOL. 

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