27 Nov 2025
I had been looking forward to writing. In my head, I have been writing, only that they haven't been typed or written, literally. Our baby, Hiraya, is now a month-old and I couldn't be more grateful that we were able to thread what seemed to be felt like forever and as another moment of firsts, and this time, with a tiny life involved, every moment felt fragile and fearful that I might risk the little life entrusted to me. The past few weeks taught me and continually teaching me about dependence and seeking help. To be in entirely on the receiving end of it is somewhat new to me. Having no steady income of my own for the past few months, not being able to drive myself to places, controlling myself not to spend so much, it was hard to think of. As days go by, I learn to trust more and more. A great shoutout to my husband for being so patient and reliable as ever. There were days that weren't perfect, but we held onto each other. Not being able to hug him long enough during ...