I am an ENTJ. According to MBTI, that's the personality of leaders, CEOs, presidents and a lot of those on top of the foodchain. Pero bakit andito pa rin ako?! #dramaramamuch
I could say that this point in my life is one of my lowest point ever. Losing a job because the immediate boss never liked q because of my inquisitive personality, not because I have a questionable performance. It's painful yet it is bound to happen.
How much of a loser could I ever get at this point?
I lost my job.
I am alone.
I don't know how to start back up.
I took a week's time to burn my last few bucks and did spontaneous travels to some local destinations to meet people I haven't seen in a long time. I haven't met new people at all.
I have been applying everywhere and haven't received any calls at all.
I know that my parents have been trying to reach out on me but I keep running away. My titas had been dropping their suggestions (though really, they think of me of a robot and expect that I do exactly what they say and they get pissed when I dont but still support my plans anyway). Conversations with friends had been limited to me talking and sobbing and talking and more me talking.
I lost a job I was not happy to do anymore. It made me feel limited to being sort of monetarily abundant but emotionally and physically tired without fulfillment.
I wanted to be alone but I am really not. I am surrounded with people who see the good in me and yet I let my internal disappoinment eat me from the inside.
I had started applying but its the waiting that is eating me alive. Waiting together with all uncertainty. Had I applied to another BPO company, I probably would have started by now.
However, at this point in my life, I am gearing towards bigger, better and brighter future goals. Charot! Haha.
I am taking my time in decision-making. I see this stage as my make-or-break point in life. If I do it wrong, I'm bound to suffer, if I do it right, I am bound to prosper. All for the long-term.
So help me God.