Being at Peace with Time

Dear Diary,

It’s been awhile. I know. I’m sorry to have kept you waiting. 

There’s really not a lot of stories to share lately. My life has just been the “normal” one. I sort of had a “series of heartbreaks” but those are just a teeny tiny bit ones compared to what others are going through right now. Also, the “heartbreaks” were the results of my being stubborn. I should have known better.

If there’s one thing I should keep reminding myself, it will be that time can never be my bestfriend, but I should never see it as an enemy. Not ever. It has always been a neutral dimension for everybody. I keep rushing it, which should never be the case, coz every event has its own “perfect time”. I should have known better, right? Maybe, I just got used to getting things and goals on a specific timeframe. I keep forgetting, that as we spend more time on things and with people, “it” gets complicated or I make “it” complicated. Contradictory to how I deal with my plans in my head: in an ideal space and time continuum. Since reality and how I picture it in my brain aren’t a match, the results are the so-called “heartbreaks”.

In my head, everything is in the “now” I keep forgetting that the verb “wait” applies to me as well just like it does on every one else.

Since, I had put this onto myself, I should also be the one to fix it myself but of course with the help of many wonderful people around me.

Mornings are a bit of calmer these days. I try not to rush myself as I prepare for the day and still manage to come to school on time. I started getting back to the morning and afternoon walks. And every day is different. I should start snapping photos again of my daily walks.

The graduate school summoned me again, so I have three subjects to love this semester. How we will survive the next five months, I will let you know. My main enemy with this one is my “laziness”.

Evening online classes are still up, and I seem to have built a regular pool of interesting clients to talk to every night.

Burgers seem to fill my thoughts lately. I’m gonna have that Zark’s Burger one of these days and I will tell you about it.

I wrote because I really just wanna tell you that I need to make peace with time, we can never really be friends, but at least, I think we should learn how to be at peace with each other. I am writing this, so you’ll remind me.

Oooops, time for bed. Time to read a chapter of the book I’m currently reading. Oh, by the way, I just finished Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. It’s a wonderful book. I hope I can find time to tell you more about it.

Till next time.

Best,

Meow

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