Broke and Positive About It

I'm broke.

Believe me, that is something very hard to admit for a 28-year old girl like me. It had been years since I graduated with a degree and had gotten license for it, worked hard, became a BPO and corporate slave and yet, 8 years after, I am broke. I am financially incapable of doing a lot of things a lot of people at my age do, like travel, buy books, spend on coffee, shopping, give to parents and not worry about emergency expenses. For some, they even had started paying for their own places.

But I would never trade this two years I gave it up for.

Two years ago, I was living a normal life, not that I am living an extraordinary life after that, I could say that two years after, I started living a far more grateful kind of life.

I may have stopped acquiring a lot of material things, or even giving so many things money can buy, in return, I learned a lot, much of it money can't buy at a nearby mall or signature shop.

Gratefulness.

That is the word I could come up with fitting to describe how my two years have been. That GRATEFULNESS can be branched out to a lot of many other descriptions--- Family, Friends, Surprises, Faith and of course, Love.

I am so blessed to have the kind of family I have right now. We may be living in a dilapidated house, but inside it I find my treasure. I used to ask why my father never really worked on building a more sturdy house for us, but now, I understand. My parents had invested on us-- their kids. It's now time to return that investment.

I am so lucky to have found wonderful friends from all over! Some of them, I just have to meet up and talk to without the fear of being judged. Some, I don't even have to talk to but reading their thoughts makes me feel connected to them. Others, I may have not talked for awhile but when I get caught up with them and reminisce, it's like we were talking about things that had just happened yesterday.

I had received a lot of wonderful surprises for the past two years! I received a huggable bear which now lays beside me in my bed, a cute bag I bring anywhere as I go forth and catch my dreams, gifts, so many wonderful gifts I didn't ask for but just came and I am so glad to have been the receiver.

In times when I feel so down, prayer kept me going and still keeps me going. God is so wise to give me the opportunity to meet wonderful people. experiences and realizations. I would probably not have it any other way.

I am surrounded with so much love. From family, friends, and the school community I am placed in. And I am not giving up on the chance of finding The One. It's just taking a little bit longer than usual but in God's perfect time and after His own heart, He will let me know.

For now, yes, I am broke and I am grateful.

I just can't wait for the next four months to unfold and complete my 2-year journey.