Life of a Kat

"... ako naman yung safe place mo."  This person is leaving me speechless again and again. I would like to think that was quite a bold offer. To feel adequate enough to offer oneself as comfort for another person, I don't know where he gets the courage to speak it out loud. After all, the only thing we can offer the world or another person, is ourselves, might as well be bold and brave and hopefully committed to it.  As we take a walk after a long tiring day at work, then sat down by the river bay with convenience store food, asked about each other's days and just sat there quiet, in my head, I have been composing about an essay of how I was feeling that time.  The full moon lit up the sky and its reflection is on the flowing river, a long stick of white light cutting the water in the middle as it glitters back the light and reflects on the surface, it was calm and peaceful.  The kind of calm and peace that you wish would never end. That kind where there was no fear ...

 Thought I'll do some scattered brain spill tonight.  After a very calm date night by the river under a waxing gibbous moon and a before bedtime conversation with the family.  As of now, the only reason I am online is for this blog entry and restraining myself to open my social media accounts to check on messages.  I told my mom that I might have a boyfriend soon but I am not sure. Her response was:  "Ikaw bahala, ikaw naman makikisama dyan, habang buhay."  "Ma, nakakatakot naman yang sagot mo, boyfriend lang naman to."  But it dawned on me also that her statement is kinda true. As commented by my youngest sister, I am not getting any younger and what else is there to do, but to invest feelings on someone that would be for a lifetime partnership.  I don't know how to describe this feeling and experience but if I would take a look back, this kind of encounter is what I dreamed of.  I dreamed of a man who would have that sense of humor to keep ...

 We are now on the -ber months!  Enjoying slower days ahead and I need to get back on my morning workouts, ropes and studying too :) Quite excited about it.  I am currently having this consistent communication and company with someone and I am working on being more outspoken in a nice way and with the aim of growth on how I see our budding friendship could go forward.  At this point, I could say that I am in a happy state of being.