14 Nov 2023

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Finally have my own nook at the new apartment! 
I actually dont know how to start today's narrative. 
I haven't fully-recovered from flu which I have been completely denying myself that I had and so I still try to continue with life despite the fatigue and exhaustion. 
You see, dishes won't wash themselves and since we dont have a dryer, clothes wont dry themselves too. 

Oh don't get me wrong, D has been so helpful. On the night of my high fever, he wouldn't sleep much at all. And he tries to really just do the chores when he is home. But when he is at work, it is just me and my mind and my excuses to not get things done while in here. 

I honestly miss the old self that can get many things done, but I also know that I cannot bring it back the way it used to be. I just really need to change a few things here and there so I can get back in track. 

We signed up for gym membership! Aint that fun? 
It has been on my mind since I can't remember and I really wanted to be able to get back to an ideal weight and health body. 

Not closing 2023 with regrets, but full of hope and picking up of self where I had left off. No new beginnings, I guess? Just unlimited second changes for a self that knows what it desires or so it thought. 

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