7 Nov 2023

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This is supposed to be my 7th entry for November, but that long detailed entry I wrote on the 1st wouldn't publish, nor get saved on drafts, and I tried to reset but I forgot to copy and paste the content. And so I lost drive to keep the blog going. 


Excuses. Excuses. Excuses. 


But here I am again, giving myself the second chance among the many second chances to keep on writing about my life. 


It has been good. Too good that it’s so boring and as much as I miss the adventures I used to  do, this life right now, is way something good to give up on. Every day I wake up with a warm embrace and a kiss. Every meal, with a prayer, every moment, shared with somebody I can now call my home. 


We are already at that point in our lives that we are shaking off the boat every now and then as life has gone too comfortable and growth doesn’t seem to come natural anymore.  


I can’t seem to shed off the weight I have gained within the year and I feel sluggish and heavy. I felt so bad about myself that I am considering going to the gym but it is financially impractical for me at the moment. The feeling of weight gain, bloat and just not being able to fit on my old clothes has been giving me feelings of depression but the moment that I moved and exercise in the morning for 30 minutes, I feel better. I put it on my calendar now like an achievement badge. I’ll keep doing that. 


I am happy to be back on training and hopefully, gain my strength sooner too. I miss the lighter feeling, the ease of movement. I promised myself that it will be the lifestyle I’ll keep aiming for. 


I have a new blog app and keeping my fingers crossed that this is a good choice despite the limited number of ratings. 


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