Sent on 3/7/2012, antagal na pala. Makapag-emo nga muna... hahaha....
It's been almost two years now. Minsan sa buhay ko, na-in-love ako, nakasakit ng damdamin at nasaktan in the end. But that doesn't stop me from loving again. As to when, only time can tell.
I am so sorry for everything. No words or thing could ever equate to the pain and havoc I had cause to your heart. This is me, trying to pick up the pieces of myself and trying to be a better person that I can be after all those mistakes I had done. I am sorry if I had stopped you from being happy with someone else, it was the selfish me who was talking back then. I am sorry for causing you so much confusion for I myself was lost and don't know what to do.
I am sorry for letting you be part of my misery. When all of these had started, all I was wanted was to be happy. To be that girl a man could ever need. I was blinded and made a fool out of myself in the end.
My healing will take a little while, that I know. I am back to my old self. Afraid of commitment. Scared to trust someone else and scared of a man's touch. As I look around me, I am quite so blessed with a lot of people who care about me, my family, my friends and used to be you. But I can't depend on you anymore at this of my life since I was the one who broke your heart.
At this moment, I am so so sad but I had to fight the urge to get in touch with anyone else but myself and God. I had to be alone coz that is the only way for me to start getting back on my feet and move on. All I am asking from you is for you to include me in your prayers coz that's the only thing that keeps me sane and strong. I am also praying for you that you forgive me for all the pain I had caused you and that you find true happiness that I had never been able to give you.
I also wanna say sorry to that girl who had comforted you while I was not by your side. Not that I want to see you ending up with her, but I know I had said bad words to her. I hope she stops bugging you for the mean time, coz just like me what you need is some peace and quiet.
For now, I am fighting the urge not to talk to you or to anyone else and I can say that it is really hard but I have no choice.
I miss my old self more than anybody else.
Please take care of yourself. I am not there anymore to nag you and fix your stuff. You are always a special part of me.
God bless you.
Loving you so much,
Alam ko may mga love letters din ako noon. Makalkal nga.