Without looking at the previous year’s entry first, sign you name first.

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365 QOTD

Without looking at the previous year’s entry first, sign you name first.

You bet it will still be the same first, middle and last name.

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Quite a lazy, good Sunday.

I was supposed to meet a Filipina couchsurfer today but she changed her plans and won’t be coming back to Miyazaki until tomorrow. I was actually excited to meet her for quitea number of reasons like.. She’s Filipina and couchsurfing solo, she has been in Japan for quite a good number of years and so living abroad and adjustments would have been good topics for conversations. And simply because she is a Filipina, it would have felt great to get connected to one again.

I spend the morning in bed and then got up, and prepped up for study at the library. But before that I waited for my friend to deliver my Amway homecare goodies. Then, I took the bus to the library. The room was full of students and I regretted the decision to come there. So I just stayed outside and it’s the usual family day video chat, instead I took my father and my uncle for a tour outside the library and the Miyazaki Shrine.

But before that, I think that was a 2-year old kid kept looking at me and waving at me while I sat and chat with my family. He intentionally stood up in front of me and flashed his cute smile while his parents wait for him to come to them. I had to stand up and walk him through his parents, he let me hold his hand and smiled to cutely. I just can’t help but miss preschool time and time again. That moment, I can tell myself, I don’t mind being messy all day, surrounded with innocent, wide-eyed, hyper kids, sometimes even moody and crying little ones. It is a very handful job to teach and look after, but I miss it.

 Will ever have the chance to raise my own kid/s? I have no idea. I can’t even handle my own moods. LOL. Nor a partner who can tolerate me. So, I let this dream be carried away by the wind until it changes it course and something wonderful happens.

I managed to encode the 20 lessons I am aiming to finish this week. Hopefully. Fingers crossed. With the upcoming exam, I can’t be complacent.

So help me God.

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