Saturday for me is bum day. It's the only time of the week I can choose whatever I want to do. But then again, it's not always like that. There are times that seems like I seem to just keep on chasing time-- having a marathon with time, and I ended up accomplishing nothing. Finding time to do something I love the most is not easy to find. Finding the words to express myself is never an easy task. As I look around, I noticed that each person is given the equal amount of time everyday to do the things want, no more for him, no less for her. Just equal. I just can't seem to accept the fact that something may be wrong with my preferences, my actions, that's why I can't seem to satisfy my day. I can't accept the truth that there are people that are greater than I ever thought who can sit and continuously write without their thoughts being distracted.
4 July 2025
It is already 4:21 AM and I am still wide awake. I woke up with sweat all over my neck, wanting to pee and can't get over the feeling of heat. Though the AC was in the blast, the electric fan is also blowing. I decided to just get up and do stuff on my laptop, most of the things that I had held off within the day because I would rather just do tinkering and cleaning around the house instead of focusing on what I know are also important for me. For the next months, the AC will be on blast mode for long hours and hours and as much I am feeling anxious as to where we will be taking the money from to pay for our monthly bills, I know that we will be alright. I am just not used to not being in control and in decision for most of my adult life but for the next few months, it will have to be a different phase and set for me as I enter motherhood and staying home way longer than I am used to. As we explore options for the future, I am very much confident that my husband and I ...
try to focus on the story behind destruction...baka mas may magandang kwento...express and narrate... inspire and use your emotions... forget about the rules!
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happy holidays..
hahhaha... thanks seƱor :) working on it... you simply inspired me.hehehe
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