Life of a Kat

 Today was a good day.  Good breakfast. Good conversations.  Me Time.  Work Time.  Cleaning Time. 

Where do you begin with seeking new beginnings?  Nope, I am not brokehearted. I am just ... feeling stuck again and again and I can't stop feeling as if my life has lost its meaning. I just keep looking at pictures from years ago with lots of adventures, trips here and there and encounters.  Let's say that I am on Day 2 of my period cycle and anxiety hit me and here I am now.  There are so many things I still want to do and here I am, I feel like I dont have much time left but I don't even know where to begin with all of it.  Maybe to begin with, I always wanted to be involved with something related to education. I actually enjoyed doing that lecture video for the teachers in our island school. Maybe, maybe I should start there.  I am waiting for the delivery guy but I feel like he is in his rebellious state that he would really wanna pop up in front of my doorstep last minute and I would be wasting a lot of hours of the day for nothing.  Tomorrow is day of...

 Hi Self, how have you been?  I had to take a long drive the other night because I had to pick up my lost wallet at the police station.  Then today, I am up early, had an attempt at a 30-min ab workout which I loved and so I am going to do a 30 min workout daily.  I am looking forward to building a lifestyle that isn't really much, but definitely enough to get me with my daily tasks and long term plans.  This is how I like my days to go:  Wake up. Read Daily Devotion Booklet.  Pray.  Make the bed. Drink a glass of water.  Greet my partner a good morning.  Lay down my yoga mat.  Workout for 30 minutes.  Breakfast. Wash the dishes.  Play the piano for 30-45 mins.  Clean the house.  Check my laptop for to do tasks for the island school, thesis-writing and other academic commitments. Check calendar for daily schedules.  Laundry.  Prep lunch.  Take a nap.  Prep for work.  Work.  Go home....

 I am not really sure if I am making any progress.  But I am still working on those little things that I believe could make the project complete.  I am sooooo easily distracted. Help me not to be. 

 It has been a long day. I started this entry as I became distracted with writing for next week's teacher training program with the big goal of improving their teaching styles and techniques. I wish I had started this project a long time ago. But I am also happy that I started this one now. It will still be a long way to go, my overthinking brain has this habit of impaling my systems and not be able to function well, it is such a tough inner battle.  I am not even sure if what I am writing right now has coherence, I just want to write. I wish that everytime I feel like I wanna write something, I can write it right away. It isn't just possible. I guess, it is also not advisable.  Writing needs reflections. I am restoring the habit of writing and reflecting at the same time.  I see myself every night in front of my laptop typing away my thoughts, my plans, my visions and achievements be it big or small.  Today I have done a lot of tiny steps about everything about...