4 Dec 2025

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Today, we sent off my younger sister on her way to go back home to the Philippines. She spent a few days traveling with friends in Tokyo and Osaka and decided to cap off her first Japan trip to visit me and meet her little niece, Aya. Well, I still was never able to make her change her diapers. She just bought her diapers. LOL. 

Even until today, I am still on that level of thinking of engineering smallness and that everything is something that I thought I wouldn't be able to make or reach or achieve. 

Having my sister come here seemed to have been an impossible thing to happen. For so long, I dreamed of having my family come over here, not just stay for a short time, but I dream to take them for a tour, make them live here, enjoy life like a local. For now, it is just my sister who can afford it. 

I keep telling myself, I just need to keep my parents healthy and happy until we can make all these plans possible. 

I still dream to be more involved in academic work. I think that is the career fulfillment I long for. To be more visible in the field alongside other academic scholar and not just some trying hard academic researcher wannabe. But I honestly have to put the work it deserves to be one. I know I have slacked for so long and the opportunity and the connection hasn't been around just yet, but of course, I also just have to do my side, then, just like any other dreams I manifested for, God will make way for it or for sure something better. For now, I just need to realize what He wants me to learn. 

Motherhood for now and more to come :D 


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