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Cry Monday

6:49PM
Umiyak ako kanina.
Parang nagsusumbong lang. Di naman bago sakin ang pag-iyak. Malungkot man o masaya,umiiyak ako. Mas madalas na di ko mapigilan ang luha kapag nagkukwento ako tungkol sa mga masasayang bagay. Kesahodang sinuman ang makakita, basta masya ako, wapakels na. pero ang luha ng lungkot, iilan lang ang nakakakita. Kaya, iniiwasan ko din ang malasing, iba kasi ang trip ko pag lasing. (Friends, kung mabasa nyo man to, please…… secret na lang yun. Hahaha)
Mabalik tayo, umiyak ako kanina. Sa harap ng klase. Sa harap ng mga bata.
Dahil nakakainis. Nakakafrustrate. Ang sistema. Ang ugali ng ibang mga bata. Di ko na napigilan. Di ko yata sila kayang mahalin. Ayoko sila makita bukas. Ayoko na. Ilang beses ko na yan sinabi pero kinabuksan, papasok pa din ako. Katunayan nga, eto oh, gumagawa ako ng lesson plan para bukas.

Noong self-contained ang handle kong class, multimedia ang setup sa loob ng classroom at may routines ang mga bata. Nakakausap ko sila nang mahinahon. Alam nil…

Paggising, Bangon Agad!

As reflect on a few things I had learned this week, here are my three takeaways from someone I had met for the first time and had been generous enough to share things on how I could get started on building my life-long career. 

1.Branch Out. I had been used to thinking about the setbacks I could encounter whenever I think of trying out of something new. As you have said, I should never limit myself to things I thought I can or cannot do. Stop thinking about the challenges I may face if I choose one. I should lay all my options first.
2.Internalize. The question you’ve given, “Am I willing to do this every day of my life?”, is something I am asking myself. I try to ask myself more often this time. One thing is for sure, I want to go back to the corporate setting, but this time, I want to be part of more challenging tasks and not just someone who will sit at the corner part of the office and just do work. I want my corporate life to be meaningful and still be able to touch many lives for th…

Finding Meaning

Why do I teach? It is the meaning of my life.- Sir Pagsi

 Kapararakan. Rootword: “para” or for in English.

Ano nga ba ang kapararakan ng buhay? Buhay mo? Buhay ko?

Tuwing ikalawang Sabado ng buwan, mern kaming required gathering. This month, pinilit ko talagang makapunta dahil si Sir Pagsi ang speaker hindi dahil “Teaching as a Vocation” ang topic.
Onofre Pagsanghan ang buong pangalan nya. Nakilala sya bilang Sir Pagsi dahil sa isang Amerikanong pari na hindi mabigkas ang apelyido nya noong kabataan nya pa. Sa ngayon, siya ay 87 years old na. nasa ika-63 taong ng pagtuturo sa Ateneo De Manila High School Department. Section A lang talaga ang tinuturuan nya. Hindi matawaran ang kanyang galing sa pagtuturo ng Filipino at English. May tungkod na sya pag naglalakad, ngunit matikas pa din ang tindig sa entablado at buung-buo pa din ang boses. Tila may powers ang kanyang pagsasalita, you can’t help but stop and pay attention to every word he says.


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Why do I teach? It is the meaning of …

Patulugin Mo Na Ko Please

Walang pasok kanina.

Di ako makatulog ngayon.

Sana kagabi na lang ganito ang issue ko para di ako magworry dahil walang pasok kinabukasan.

Bakit nga ba di ako makatulog?

Sinimulan kong basahin yung bagong libro ni Noringai. Buti Pa Ang Roma, May Bagong Papa.

Relatable in so many aspects. Di pa nagsisink in lahat at kelangan ko pang i-POV with my housemate ang mga bagay-bagay pero for sure, magsusulat ako tingkol dun.

Naisip ko lang kanina, ang mga space explorations ang goal ay ang malaman kung san pa pwedeng may mga buhay na nilalang or kung pwedeng mabuhay sa Mars. Bakit kaya hindi na lang alamin kung san pwede gumawa ng dumpsite sa outerspace? Diba mas praktikal yun? We eradicate all the unnecessary things on Earth and we get to start anew. We get to take care of this Pale Blue Dot which is the only thing we got.

Expanding naman ang universe, dumping some garbage to it I guess wont harm others. Pwedeng yung trajectory ng Space Dumper ay derecho na sa pinakamalapit na blackhole p…

Katkat's Daily Reminders

1.Tapusin ang trabaho. Ikaw lang din naman ang gagawa nito. Pag kelangan na umuwi, iwan na ang trabaho, andyan pa din naman yan pagbalik mo. Work-Life Balance muna.
2. Housemate, flush the toilet. Please lang.
3. Fix the bed. Always.
4.No work-related stuff on the bed nor near the bed.
5.Laging maglagay ng sapin sa likod.
6.Pwede naman magreklamo, pero tandaan mo, ginusto mo yan.
7.Kapag kinutuban ka, yun na yun.
8.Laging magbaon ng tubig.
9.Thoughts are portrayed through actions, kahit i-deny mo pa ang lahat.
10.Pag may pasok, dapat gising nang 4am, pero sige, pwede mag extend hanggang 4:20am.
11.Pag Sabado, ok lang maging bum. Pero kapag may labahan pa, hindi pa pwede.
12.Ang gamit para sa kinabukasan, kelangan ayos na bago matulog.
13.Ang pagtitipid ay hindi nakakamtan sa pagtitikis ng mga bagay para sa sarili. Nakakamit ito sa pagbibigay ng mga tamang bagay para sa sarili.
14.Di mo kelangang habulin ang oras, kelangan mo lang sabayan.







Kaya Mo Yan.

I would never stop saying "Kaya mo yan." to every child.

I had seen its effect and it's soooo amazing? wonderful? a tearjerker? I really can't find the exact words to describe the feeling it brings me every time I try to look back.

"Cher, di ko kayang mag-drawing!"
"Cher, di ko kayang sagutan."
"Cher, di ko kayang gawin."

To which I'll say:

"Sinubukan mo na ba?"
"Binasa mo bang maigi?"
"Nakinig ka ba, kanina?"


To which they'll reply:

"Hindi pa po."
"Hindi pa po."

"...................."

To which I'll say:

"Subukan mo muna, kaya mo yan."
"Basahin mo muna, kaya mo yan."
"Lakihan ang tenga, isara ang bibig, kaya mo yan."


Then, they will.

The results:

Funny, out-of-this-world artworks, only kids can do.
Witty answers.
Great responses.

Because, I know, they can.


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Written while 3-Faraday was working on grouping animals according to body parts the…

Random Rambling 090814

7:59pm
In school recently, I always get the question:

So, after this school year, where will you go? Will you still teach? 

My generic answer:

I still don't know. 

Even though the organization is paving the way for our careers after this stint, I can't help but still not know what the future will give me. And I had told myself to stop worrying for the now and just do what is expected of me with what I signed up for.

Daily struggle.

Every day is still a struggle to get up at 4 in the morning. I still extend the snooze every ten minutes and finally get up at usually around 4:20. Start with the morning routine of preparing breakfast and baon for school. One thing I had come to realize recently is the importance of regular intake of vitamins-- ascorbic acid and ferrous sulfate.

I am always honda.

I arrived in school usually around 6 in the morning. I've been trying to arrive as early as 5:30, but it only happens when my co-teacher is about to carpool me. She had been trying to …

Tuesday, September 2

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Its past 6pm, on a regular Tuesday, I would have been on my way home from tutorial sessions. However, today, I decided to go to one post ceremonial events of Ramon Magsaysay Awards sponsored by World Bank Philippines.

Together with my 3 co-fellows, we went to attend an intimate discussion about the situation of the education here in the Philippines and a featured film-showing of the life of one of the RMA Awardees, Butet Manurung of Indonesia, founder of Sokolo Rimba. Also in the event was Randy Halasan of Pegalongan, Davao City. The first time I've read about Sir Randy was in Rappler last weekend when he was featured. I even commented there that I hope to meet him in one of the RMA events and it did happen today. 

After the post discussion, the photographer jokingly said to me that he was waiting for my tears to fall down as I give my insight about the movie and ask Butet and Randy a question. I said, my tears had just stopped falling down a few minutes ago. Actually, I was clutchi…