Monday is for Patience.

Today is July 25, 2016

I’ve been thinking on how I will write this one while on the train, then I can’t remember a thing anymore. -_-

I told my family that I am scheduled for a job interview today. The schedule has been set a long long time ago and today, I had my mindset prepared and all set for the said moment. However, things had changed when they said that we all had to wait for a phone call from a pre-selection committee. Should you receive a notice, that’s the only time you will need to go to the office. However, since I am confident about my credentials, deep in my heart, I really did hope to be one of those who will receive the phone call. But I never did receive any this morning. I was really sad. Super sad. I even appealed to the coordinator if I can still be included for today, I know it was a desperate call.

I texted my friend. I cried in front of my friends. I cried to my friend over the phone. Then I told my uncle I was very sad when I got home. 

But still, God is so good to not let this day end so down. He is indeed merciful. 

Today’s Realizations

1.      I’m not that patient enough. I still need to learn more about it and embrace it more.

2.      No matter how qualified I feel, I cannot just insist myself to be on the list. I have to wait for my turn.

3.      I am so blessed to be surrounded with people who understand and know the right words to say at times like this.

4.     They believe I can do it, why am I having a hard time believing myself.

5.     I’ve been rejected a lot of times, every time it happens, it still hurts.

6.      I should never lose hope and would only stop dreaming big when people around me had stopped believing in me.

7.      I thought I have overcome the idea of being on top of the list always, I still expect too much and think too high of myself. I keep forgetting that other than abilities, it’s attitude that’s important.

Today’s Quotes:

D: Everything happens for a reason. Antay ka lang.

J: Kat, don’t lose hope. Test lang to. Test of patience.

V: Antay ka lang, alam naming kaya mo yan.

G: It’s all about the timing. Nagsisimula pa lang ang laban.

J: But don’t lost hope. Give it your best.

U: Wag ka na malungkot. Nararamdaman kong matatanggap ka din. Naniniwala ako sayo.

Thank you Lord. Thank you for this Monday. Thank you for the wonderful people in my life. I don’t know what I have done to receive so much love and acceptance for who I am.