Life of a Kat

366 QOTD Why? Hmmm... then this question word is the start of all the other whys... Let's begin. Why are you staying where you're at right now? One will probably be because it had become my comfort zone. It is, despite the lack of financial security that I am experiencing, on top of that, I am enjoying the learning process that I am being exposed to, with the kids and my co-workers. It is humbling, but of course, I am also having my not-so-humble attitude springing up every now and then and I keep reminding myself of who I really am. Why Japan? It is a very nice place and I have been living in a very nice and laidback city, away from the hustle and bustle of life. Why do you go to the gym? For many reasons-- I need to find meaningful reasons to do when I go out of the house. I need to take care of my body and my health. Keeping an active lifestyle through workout can do that. Also, for me not to feel so guilty of eating rice almost every day. Why do you blog...

366 QOTD Who is the last person you said "I love you." to? Of course, my Mom. It is a Sunday and as usual, we have morning video chats before they go to church. But today, they didn't go to church, because social gatherings aren't allowed because of the corona virus that is going around the world. Every day, every call, it will always end with a "Labyu." from me. ******* I am currently rendering a video to be played in school on Saturday and it says it will take an hour or so, so might as well do answer the previous QOTDs on the list. Hahaha. Define "trying to get caught up with life." ******* March 14 List 3 things you have faith in. I have faith in God... that He is always with me. In seasons, in health, especially at times when I doubt myself so much. I have faith in myself, that with prayers, persistence, discipline and constant reminding of oneself, I can always be who I want to be. I have faith that in God's time, I...

Just when I thought that passing the Compre exam late last year was the only thing I have to get through and then after 18 months I will be finishing grad school... I should have listened to those you quit this challenge or had never pursued this path.. but here I am, taking this path, as I would think... "the less traveled." as of now. As the proposal days are coming closer and closer, means that I need to read more and more. I feel like I am in Law School. Our professors had already made efforts in outlining what we need to learn, we just have to follow. Reading and self-discipline are hard to find for me lately. As per my phone, my screen time is ranging from 2 hrs up to 5 hours in a day just for social media. Tsk. Today, I timed my reading of a case study and I finished a 10-page write up in 1.5 hours including the note-taking. I need to read a minimum of a hundred studies and related literature to be able to come up with something reliable and it should have star...

366 QOTD What relaxes you? Good conversations over alcohol. A good workout in the gym. A great song while in the shower. Writing about my day. S*x would probably be the best release to relax but I am at the "wish mode" for that right now. ******************* Weekend came and weekend will leave soon. So grateful for closing the past week with good conversations, from honest to kept secrets and confessions. Today is Mama's birthday. I greeted her differently this year. I would usually write some ode-like entry about her but today, I shared an anecdote of our usual Sunday video conversation and I couldn't be happier for having my birthday greetings like that this year. I still owe Mama a lot. My life, I owe it to her and to Papa and I hope to already start working on piling up the resources to give them the dream house I want for them, after that, if ever I don't get a chance to have my own family, I probably would be ready to die, for I have accompl...

366 QOTD What do you wish you had left unsaid? There was nothing I wish I have left unsaid, but I wish I have said things nicer. It probably would have felt better.

4th of March 2020.  I am feeling it. I can see it coming. Then, it was already there.  That evening, I had a very bad response to my big sister-cousin's announcement that they are changing her daughter's birthday theme. Just when we all had their birthday balloons delivered and one has been inflated. I had said all the unkind words I can think of that moment and my cousin also took it seriously and never responded to me thereafter.  Oh well, then, there is this other person who was also trying to be smart and then ended up being... I don't know. Good thing that we had to a surprise dinner outside and I was able to eat a cup of ice cream. I really realized how pesky and stubborn I had been and my pride couldn't take it to apologize for how such an a bratty, biatch had I been and continue to be.  I just had to take a deep breath.  Wednesday also tried to eat me alive. I cried. Tears welled up my eyes as I tried to walk my way ho...

366 QOTD The funniest thing I've heard today...... I can't remember anything specific.. Today was a good day. I spent it with 3 of the people closest I have here in Miyazaki. And it was just all fun and laughter around them. Grateful for having spent lunch with a newfound friend in Rina. She is just a ball of laughter and giggles. I bet, there will be not a lot of down moments when she is around. Grateful for exchange of photos from home. Grateful for short exchange of convo with Kuya J in California. I can't wait for him to meet my other siblings and I hope he gets to connect with them the way he is with me. Grateful for the chance of travel despite the gloomy weather. Grateful for the wisdom and the willpower to study for a few hours this morning. **** Though I still lots of pending stuff to do. Keeping it real and going. Will need to deliver as promised. I missed going to the gym for 3 straight days and I think my usual issue is not with the gym sch...

Thoughts from James Clear of Atomic Habits: If you wanna be a writer, you just keep writing. No matter how many letters, no matter how many words, no matter how many lines.... You just get start writing. March 1st it is and I am saying hello to writing. So far, my cues for writing were mostly cold, thus not much output, but will definitely work into and have it all ready for some actions in the coming days. So many things to write about: for school outputs, for story-telling, for self. And so it all begin again.