NBD Vol.4 No.Unknown Series of 2020

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I have reactivated my Facebook profile. I honestly miss being in there too. But I am back to too much scrolling again, so I probably may have to deactivate it again? 

After school, I decided to go for a briskwalk by the riverside. On my way back, I wasn't able to start the tears from falling down. 

In my head I was trying to point out what are the events that had been triggering this down feeling and I know in my head what those things are. I just do not have the courage to speak out my mind yet. Or I do not have the energy to do so. 

I am happy with what I am doing. I don't wanna be here. I was happy. I don't wanna be here. Get me away from here. -- these are the lines that had been running in my head. I just gotta breathe and think but I can't do that while I am there. 

After coming home, I took a shower and tried writing this down. More scrolls on Facebook and will be calling it a day with a book on one hand, in bed.

It is a Thursday. Nothing goes wrong on a Thursday for me, but today, it was quite hard to find anything that is going right. 

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