26 Sept 2025

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 Sleep has been somewhat irregular. As I approach the final days of pregnancy and anticipating labor and delivery, sleeping itself proved to be a challenge, with a very big belly, heavy body and crazy feelings with anticipation and a bit of worry about the future. 

Also, I had been so caught up with all the Flood Control controversy and senate hearing in the Philippines, that even now, I get distracted writing this as I browse through all the reddit feeds. If its not on fb, then its gonna be reddit. Can't imagine the worse it could get if I also have X and Threads to look into. 

A month of being unemployed and this has been life. Glad to have been able to control weight gain until within the borders of expectations, but life had simply been full of the mundane tasks, very few can be considered accomplishments, still disappointment about my scrolling habits, and still struggling to improve on it, working on little ways to fight it every now and then. Nevertheless, I am not losing hope on myself that I will get to learn the new ropes of balanced life and well-being in this new stage of my life. 

I am working on the forward mindset of the healthy well-being of me instead of lingering on the past me that I had been missing and longing for. 

Being dependent on a partner is something I am learning right now, and been failing most of the time, and in those down moments, I learn to be more grateful to my husband and the situation that we are in together. 

One task at a time, one at a time. I keep reminding myself. The world is so abundant of resources that I should not be afraid of being depleted, rejected or deprived of anything in the future. For now, I am to be healthy, strong and stable to be able to focus on having a normal delivery of a baby girl that is meant to change our lives forever. 

Who knows, this girl could be the next one to change the world as well. For good. For the better. For others. 

For now, I have me and her to take care of. Let me go back to bed and drown in envy as hubby sleeps heavily with a beautiful rhythm of snoring. LOL. 

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  1. Hi! I am LiLi!27 September 2025 at 11:36

    So excited for you, Kat and your hubby. Enjoy parenthood.

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