Life of a Kat

Dear Monday, I conquered you.  PMS, you're next.  Self, you got this. 

I am supposed to be working on my study guides at the moment. But here I am, in tears.. feeling sad, tired and lonely. This is just temporary. But dude, it can really take up energy. After this, I'm gonna go and study.  I have to do this. 

June 6, 2020 366 QOTD  Share a secret thought.  Hmm.. I am kinda comfortable at the level of connection that I have with this person right now. We are just two adults trapped in this side of the world and seem to have really get to bond well at the moment. Anytime soon, when things are better, that person would have to get back to his side of the world.  Guard your heart, Kat. You've seen enough, you've heard enough, you've pained enough to see how these kind of things go. For now, enjoy the company, you are doing great :)  Don't worry, when worse comes to worst, for sure you are prepared for that "I told you so." line, right? Then, you will be okay. For now, use the feeling as an inspiration to keep writing for the projects you intend to complete. Use these moments to your advantage. 

Indeed, nothing can ever go wrong on a Thursday. As we all carry our own shares of weights of responsibilities and anxieties in our shoulders, the least we can do is be there for each other.  Para magbolahan tayong pare-pareho tayong masisipag. 🤣😂  I miss the days of legit cramming and procrastination as we battle with workloads and academic deadlines. Not that I am asking for it. It just made me remember that Friedrich Nietzsche said something about ourselves being our worst enemy. Now that we are given more leeway with time, the challenge has been with slacking, putting non-essential readings first, too much social media, and other things that delays productivity. Acknowledging that and working it, slowly but surely, we will finish this race with learning badges not just from the academe but from the school of life itself.

366 QOTD  How close to perfect is today? It would have been like this...... After a long day at work, I kept looking at the clock to catch the bus to take me to the train station. Hopped on the train, oblivious to everybody in the train but very much excited about the person who will pick me up at the train stop and the thrill of catching the sunset.  Had a quick bite at the closest restaurant, enjoyed conversation about how each other's day had gone by and almost forgot about the sunset. Going out of the restaurant, there was the streak of shades of pink and red stretched in the sky. When we reached the beach house and took a long walk. At the end, by the border, we had to turn and that's when I got a soft, warm kiss to welcome the night.  Dinner conversations, cuddles, quick drive to get late night snacks, then more cuddles.  The next morning, the calm waves would wake me up as I lay wrapped around his arms.  I will quietly get up, wrap myself with a towel and...

The skies are dark for days now. But it didn't stop me from going out yesterday.  From riding into a wrong train, making it an hour later than expected to the meeting, a bit wet and litte chilly from the tiny drizzles, I thought, I have the Sunday escape adventure a disaster. In the end, it all turned out with a lot of unexpected surprises, conversations and simply sitting down by the beach, singing out of tune and letting go. My body tired yet, my mind was rejoicing. I had one of the lighest sleep I can ever remember having. And I fear that I might snap onto the kids today. I hope not. Nobody deserves my childish acts after having spent a relatively good Sunday.  It is 1st of June, 2020. I have ran out of excuses not to start writing that baby thesis. Yesterday's event and meeting were good inspirations. Reminding myself not to expect anything out of it, is something that just happens to be as it is.  Work on the goal. Stay healthy. Keep reading. Never stop dreaming. You...

366 QOTD  What did you have the most fun doing today?  .... being with kids is always fun. Today is extra special and heart-melting: Kodai said that he wants to be a teacher like me!!! <3  the morning call from family was also fun..  the sinigang dinner c/o Tita Gladys was a pleasant surprise as well.  I can't really say that Thursday has been calm, but it had been a lovely day.  Thank you Lord.  *****