Bump into you soon.

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 Dear You, 

How are you? I hope you are well. It had been awhile that I had written a letter, more so addressed to YOU, someone I probably know or still have to meet in the future. I am yet to know. 

I haven't written you in for quite a long time, but in my head, every time I space out, I take time to write you a letter.

When I am happy, I wish I can share it to you right away. 

When I am sad, I wish you are the one person I can talk to. 

When I am sleeping, I wish you are that one warm body I could hug. 

When I am bored, I wish I can spend those boring times with you. 

Every time I meet someone, I always make this huge mistake of wishing that it is already you. A very bad expectation, when I should have zero expectations altogether. 

It hurts and I don't know when I will ever learn. 

But let's not delve into that cycle of unending drama of unmet expectations. I am writing this to express my newest realizations about being in a relationship with you. 

I realized that as much as I wish to have a partner in crime in all the adventures and fun times, I am more looking forward to having someone to spend all the downtimes, the slow drag moments, the boring activities, the mundane acts for existence. 

I have learned to make a good time out of my solitary life, but I can never learn to stop wishing for someone to share the not-so fun, the boring and the adulting life altogether.

Just wanna let you know that. 

I hope you are spending your holidays with the ones you love. I am spending my holidays with my cousin whom we all hope is in recovery from Burkitt's lymphoma as he is taking the time off from the intensive chemotherapy. We both have chose to stay instead of spending the holidays back home. For now, we would like to make sure that he is doing well and living a healthy life. 

I look forward to spending so many boring days with you, don't worry, when I get bored with being bored, which I will most likely be, I will drag you into some adventures and you can't say no to it. 


The love of your life, 

Kat 

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