On a scale of 1-10, how is your health?

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 Feb 2

The most expensive bill I paid last month was ___________.

- the electric bill! It was worth ¥7000~something. Crazy but I think because I had been home for most of the late December days and been using the home appliances, back to back. 


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Feb 3

What's the last thing you apologized for?

- for being absent for the past 2 online sessions for the leadership course I signed up in a uni in NZ. 


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Feb 4

My favorite color is ______.

- my favorite color is white. It is so simple and you know that if its there, it is a combination of all the colors! 


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Feb 5

On a scale of 1-10, how is your health?

Very good question. 

Physical health is probably at 7. With my dental maintenance check up screaming to be done ASAP. I have been loving the constant but not so constant physical workouts I do at the gym. And slowly gearing towards weight-lifting for weight loss and tone up shape. Still a long way to go, a lot of slips in between sessions, unhealthy eating habits I can't let go at the moment. But as far as I know, I am functional, can go to work, talk to people with sense, pay my bills and able to read books. 

Mental health is probably at 7 but it is more of a struggle compared to maintaining physical health. Every month, I would have this emo-"#$% moment that I just feel so sad, despite having done a lot of things for the day, knowing that I am doing a good job and I just feel the need to cry. Writing this at the moment is giving that clump at the chest and the tears wanting to flow again. Just like that. I am sad for now, but I also don't want to be so happy, I just wanna be well enough. Fine enough to be able to face the world, be an encouragement to other people to do good as well. All I want is to be able to finish my studies, buy a house and lot for my mom and dad, have lots of sex if I can, get married if possible, be pregnant and give birth to a healthy child, be a mom whom my future children will be proud of, I just wanna be someone who, when I die and I face my Savior, He will tell me, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." 

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