Life of a Kat

​Today was tiring and fun! We went to this castle called Tsuruga Castle.  I drove on the snow again! It was fun and scary at the same time.  Had gone for yakiniku for dinner and now still stuck in Donki.  They had been asking me to extend my stay, but I kust couldn't anymore at this time. A lot of pending tasks. I would really love to stay longer, but seeing Kuya better and ate really just taking time to enjoy being with her brother, I am fine with that already.  I am sooooo tired actually. I just wanna go home and sleep and snore so loud. Lol.  I really need to fix that one, for sure it is a major turn off if I have someone sleeping next to me :( 

​Landed in Tokyo.  Arrived in Fukushima.  Third time in here and for a change, I was welcomed by  my ate and kuya. It felt so good to hug her. And kuya was looking so well as if nothing happened to him the past few months.  I lack sleep but here I am and still writing my journal entry today.  Tomorrow will be roadtrip and it will be amazing! ❤️

Morning was exciting. Talking to Jhe about the island school always excites me.  Morning conversation with family was also exciting coz, as far as homecoming is concerned, I can already come home with minimal restraints and quarantine restrictions, but coming back to Japan is still a little bit tricky. Also with all the expenses that comes with the isolation.  I miss home. I was looking at my old pictures from the last time I came home. I just miss it so bad.  The day rolled and work took its toll on me. And then I still have to prepare for tomorrow's flight. I am excited though. Super excited.  I will be with family.  I wish I could have more conversation with this guy I like but I think, it is time to cut all my hopes and dreams. He was nice, very nice, But probably, he is just like that to everybody else. Nonetheless, for sure he will make a good partner. I wouldn't know. 

Past midnight again and I am still here just about to get a wrap on how my day had gone.  It had been long. One of those long days that you needed a lot of mind shift from one task to another, and still haven't ticked everything in the list. From one meeting to another, then have to think about what to eat for lunch, find the parking lot for Sunday, feeling little tinge of pains in my wrists and fingers but still wanting to tap on the piano keys and do rope flow for the whole time. Those activities make time fly by so fast and makes me feel accomplished, not that I am already good at them but I can see myself making little progress and it really makes me calm down, even just for a bit. I was able squeeze in 10 mins of rope flow in the afternoon, but no piano drills :(  I did a quick packing up tonight for my Fukushima weekend trip. I was hoping to see the guy I like in Tokyo before going to Fukushima, but I guess, it isn't meant to be that way. If I will ever see him again, I ...

 I wasn't able to have good film of my rope flow tonight, so no post for memories :(  I had good thoughts earlier about what to write, but I had totally forgot about it already.  Oh well, this needy side of me just needs to mellow down at the moment.  Today was a good day, capping it off with a glass of wine, well I tried to do a second glass but it seems that I am not finishing it, or will I be? then I gotta drink water then milk.  Tomorrow is kinda busy day for adult stuff... From morning til night, but I will try to squeeze in fun rope times around lunch then nap time, then work.  Should be a busy day. 

 It is 1:18 AM. So way past my bedtime. Just because I want to finish doing the pubmat I promised for the island school. And I finished it. Good job self. Nothing really out of the ordinary today. I played piano, I practiced ropeflow, I went to work. I got tired. I had dinner.  Ohh. This afternoon, I finally sent a message to this one guy I met through a dating app. I told him to stop wasting his time on me coz it seems to me that I am really more comfortable just being on my own most of the time, or most likely, he isn't the one I want to spend time with. But even if its this guy I superlike, I dont think I can really go on for long phone conversations and doing nothing.  I don't know. I am quite micro-dosed by my crush today. We talked and I am happy. Which is not really healthy. I wish I can be the same brave self to ask him if there is a future for us, if there is none, at least I could stop hoping and move forward, right? I wish I am that brave to receive the rejecti...

 I am honestly so tired today from work but I was still able to record my cover version of Make You Feel My Love.  It was amazing. I feel so proud and I hope that I can transfer this same perseverance in my thesis writing. I know I keep repeating myself about it and not really doing anything about it, but what can I do? I just cant seem to do it right now and all I can do is learn how to play the piano.  Today was a good day. Routine-wise, I was able to do a lot stuff, and I just need to know how I could declutter further.