Life of a Kat

 365 QOTD  What motivated you today?  There are days that I set these questions on Canva and every time, I have written something as I answer them in my head. I imagine myself having the ability to just always put my thoughts into words every single time. But I think, it is better that way. We choose those stories we want to immortalize.  Today, I choose to immortalize.  I woke up and was good at not going back to bed. But I still have to work on not lingering on my phone before I forcefully put down the phone to get on with my day. First with a cup of espresso and tuna mayo dip for crackers. I forgot the bananas. While packing up things, I had the airfyer going, the chilled rice on thaw at microwave and cookie butter on singles on a ziplock,  Took a bath, packed up for the day and off I had gone!  First stop was a private lesson with a young lad who seem to be so chill and relaxed and sometimes I wish I have the same demeanor.  Next was a  v...

 365 QOTD  What was the last thing that made you Laugh Out Loud?  I honestly can remember. But if you ask if I am smiling... most of the time, I am. There are just times that I suddenly feel sad and lonely, out of nowhere. I am trying to pinpoint triggers, but it is just hard, but I guess for now, awareness of the feelings make me more vigilant about my attitude and how to deal with it.  I am so tired today. I can't even tell how tired I am today. LOL.  Three hundred minutes of straight teaching time for two consecutive days, I don't know how teachers in a big school, deal with it. Coz, it seems to me that I can't do it anymore in a daily basis. HAHAHA.  Every time, I thank the Lord and the universe for giving me a car at this time of my life when I have made a lot of commitments and jobs that fulfill my time and my passions.  My family in Manila had just finished cleaning up after the floods due to the incessant rains. They are safe and sound. Thank Y...

 365 QOTD  What are your chores today?  The usuals: dishes, laundry, sweeping the floor, taking out the trash. All of it, coz I live alone. As much as I can, I try to keep my little space tiny and livable coz I do most of my projects in here.  I don't know how I got through the day without being pissed of the kids or upset. I had very light sleep last night, waking up every 2 hours and just totally restless.  I splurged today. I had a big pancake breakfast at a family restaurant and grabbed late lunch from 7-11 on my way to work. Those expense would have been good enough for another 3 days but I just had to treat myself. After that, I went home and tried to take a bit of more sleep before I get to work. I did for a bit.  Today, when I left my house and also, on my way home, the rain poured so heavy that I had second thoughts of making a stop and putting on the hazard signal coz I am just so scared of how blocked my view was at those times. The rain probably...

Two glasses of red wine, Love, Simon on the background, freshly bandaged wrists with salonpas patches, I am wrapping up the night with this random thoughts of a full on day.  Just a few thoughts on dating and pursuing. A lot is being said about defining and being straight forward about intentions on dating. I'm not really sure if I can be on that side of dating again. I've been thinking about it, I don't really wanna know new people, but it's more I want to date people that I already know. That process of introductions just seem so petty, knowing that those people that I already know by name, I am not really sure if I really know them by truth or if I even had a glimpse of their truth. It is already overwhelming to retrieve names from memory, what more to add some more on the database, only to be either archived or put on favorite for wrong expectations then later on heartbreak. LOL.  My wrists are aching as I proceed with my thoughts.  What I am trying to say is... I n...

 This is what slowing down can do to me.  It brings me to tears and other uncomfortable feelings.  While working on details regarding my current mobile plan in Japan, I just broke and thought of this person I haven't seen in many weeks and I don't know if I will ever see again. So many questions in my head and doubts about the future when I know that I should just be focusing on my goals that I had set for myself and let loneliness do its diligent course of making me push further for a better self as I prepare to meet my lifetime partner.  For that person who I miss so much. I couldn't have met him on a better time in my life. This pandemic was his chance to come across me and I learned so much from him.  As I continue to nurse this longing, I will pick up my butt and go to the gym. Workout my lower body as I give my arms and shoulders a rest.  Work would need to be taken seriously as this is the hard hustle season for the school year. Couldn't be more grat...

 365 QOTD  How busy was your day today?  I had been moving all day long, but my engagement with social media is still at a peak level.  I woke up and thought of going for archery and then, I looked at my calendar and remembered that I have a private class at 10AM. Also, it rained so hard that I didn't feel like going for it anymore at this time. After the class, I stayed for a bit longer and my CEO friend and I had lunch at this very old tonkatsu restaurant and it was good but I don't think I will ever go there again when I am not so hungry coz the serving was so big for me. But it was really for a very good price!  Then, I thought of going to for grocery first, but I failed to take the right line to turn right to Donki, so I just decided, I'll go to Foodaly. Which, was a bit better coz I knew that stuff in there were expensive, so I chose only those that I think I really at the time. I bought vegetables on sale, bananas, discounted meat (pork and chicken) and m...

That's a very good question. But the biggest thing I have so far right now is not really for me or it could also be for me in such a way that it could be a bragging rights for me? It's all about the completion of the school operations manual that the school directors and I are working together for and it is almost complete. But of course it's not perfect given that I don't really have any background in policymaking but I've just been looking into different models and structures online. So I'm just so excited and so looking forward to to have that project closed and be declared as operational for the school for the community it is going to serve for the years to come it would be the seminal policy that the future policies for the school and the community will be built upon. What can I say today has been somewhat productive but I'm not really sure if I am being productive. One thing to think about is well I spent for coffee today but that's for my friends ...

I'm afraid that I would get so used to being alone and that I would grow old alone, no kids, no husband, just me.  I am not afraid to die. I am afraid that I will spend the time of living with so much love to give yet giving it to the wrong person. I just wish for the wrong to stop being the wrong person and make himself the right person. Lol   

 365 QOTD  How much is gasoline per gallon?  Look at that, one year ago, I answered this same question and this year, I intend to answer it again with numbers and not, with "I dont know."  The last time I gassed-up, it was ¥164/liters. Expensive coz it was station located at a busy road and I just needed to refill that time.  Look at that, I am answering this question now in this way.  Blue had been such a big help in many, many ways.  Would it be too much to ask the universe to bring me back "my" driver sweet lover? LOL.  But if reality will slap me, I know that it is a punch to the moon to ask for it.  I certainly miss the feeling. I am scared I wont know how it feel anymore. 

 8:16 AM  I woke up before my alarm but still that not-so good habit of grabbing my phone and scrolling through social media and checking likes and people and not even the news! I really need to let go of that habit and stick to reading the news every morning.  The days are getting hotter and hotter and busier as ever too. I am restless as ever and would really like to have this entry finished without distractions, but as of this moment, it is 8:53AM and this is just how far I had gone. Toggling between tabs, clicking links and getting lost and out of focus.  To get started, let me just think about how my day would go today.  So, I have a video-taping activity at my friend's office for our current project and I am torn between going to the gym or going for yoga and a little bit surfing coz I havent done it for weeks now. that will be decided after the taping. I cooked rice today, and I will be going for lemon chicken to go with it and steamed spinach (frozen) as...