20 May 2022

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I am having anxiety attacks again. I checked and I am 4 days away from my expected time of the month. I am craving for a lot of salty food, ice cream, cake, ramen, rice and just all the food I could think of. 

On an occasion like this, I usually just wanna curl up in bed and do nothing but scroll on my phone and maybe message someone whom I thought would ease all the anxiety. But I know that I am more mature now and had stronger hold on my willpower to manage my emotions and my actions. 

I have learned not to chase people who ran away. To live life in the most grateful way I could think of, to move my body, to work on things that I am passionate about, to keep writing for myself, taking pictures for myself and just really taking care of myself so I can be able to service to others, after all, I have taxes to pay and other unfulfilled ambitions just yet. 

I am in one of those days again trying to keep myself above water, it is temporary, but it can really be inwardly, excruciatingly torturing if left unattended. 

It's quite a journey, and I can only imagine how others are also fight their inner battles.

Busy day tomorrow and I just really need a good shower and a good night sleep. 



Comments

  1. sheng31 May 2022 at 13:03

    You are not alone in this kind of battle. Keep the faith.

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